Darling Beatrice,

2012-02-13T14:24:00.001+08:00

Hai! It's been a week since I posted something. *Laughs! Busy and tiring know... Shall post something short and continue working(slacking). LOLS!

Spent last Friday's night separately with love. He has his own plans, and so do I. I went out with boss, fat and fish to East Coast Park for dinner and then... Prawning ^^v Though it ended at 3am plus, and everyone's tired, but we enjoyed, even if it was only the 4 of us. While on the way, reaching home, there was road block. First time had I encountered it. Boooo (N) But none of us drank, so it's fine. Plus I'm a legal driver ok~

Saturday. At home bonding with darling and Love.

Sunday, went to Sheng Yang's and Wee Lee's precious Nathen's baby shower! An adorable chap he is, very small in size too! Even his bottle, like him, so small! Haha! After that, went home. Was supposed to have Secondary school-mates' gathering because Shan wanted to introduce her new boy to us, but none of them were free. Eventually, cancelled. And because it was cancelled, I was able to upgrade my ring to Asphodelus :) I'm a happygirl91 now! Because even Asphodelus is back to my box of rings, and soon, Caladium baby and Violet deary will be back. Next will be Rosemary, Gladiolus, Edelweiss and then Max! 6 more ring baby! And we will owned our very own max ring! Then we will be forever and ever together~ Haha! Fat hope -.-|| Self-shiok only. Lmao!

Anyway, currently at work. Love is on leave until Thursday :) He's likea boss now :) How I wish I can accompany him! Tsk! But no, I've work. I can't possibly want to take off, then take. So bad of me! Oh ya, as for our plans for our second child, it's gonna be on hold. If this month, my auntie still come visits me, then we're not gonna plan for the second one. Will make do with one.

This! Was taken on 2nd February!

Mer planned that night to have dinner and slacked,

but we got too bored and went up to the arcade.

Chuan saw this, and said he has never taken it before,

so we took it :)

Happy fun times with EMB ^^

Now, take a look at the adorable ones ^^

This was how Beatrice wakes love up.

Sneak peeped at him and attack! :)

See how she stands,

her sexy pose!

And this was taken in the morning,

when Beatrice and love were in the Polyclinic,

waiting for their queue no.

So emo nemo right! But adorable :)

Oh, forgotten to update here. Darling went to the Polyclinic for her regular appointment for jabs. However, today she cannot take any jabs because she'd flu and cough. So all her jabs were to put on hold until April then she will have them. Poor girl, but mummy's and daddy's around to look after you, you'll definitely have a speedy recovery alright ^^ Love you sweetie!

2012-02-07T10:39:00.000+08:00

Oh hi! I'm back to town! LOLS! Not away actually, just kinda busy to blog because I'm tired and tied down past few days.

I've got a good news! Love's family has given the green light and we are going to ROM soon! Earliest, by this year. Latest, should be next year :) I'm a happy girl now. However, I'm afraid of this marriage may leads to a distance between Jeffrey hun and me. Though it might, but love is still my priority ^^

Darling has been waking up in the midst of night for her milky which made me really drained. But luckily, love's home last night to feed her. She's getting playful nowdays, but also, smiling more often! No more staring, though at times..? Haha! Watching her sleep with laughter and smile all over her rosy cheeks, brings comfort to me. I do not regret having you...

Recently, I've received news from Hwee Zhen about how that jerk thinks about me and I felt it insulting. Was affected for that short while and now, I'm on cloud nine. I shall not give a fuck to him and lead my own life. Because this miserable person couldn't have a life on his own. Bye to this sucker here (Y)

Well, no pictures taken lately because we were all so busy. But trust me, darling is growing well! Haha, she preferred her baby bites and cereal more than her milky. LOLS! Anyway, I might be expecting again. Shall do a check when it's mid February! :) Bye people!

2012-02-04T10:43:00.000+08:00

Morning bloggers! I'd a very long and tiring day yesterday. Left work at 5.30pm, approved by Michael, and rushed home just to bake the birthday brownie cake for Jeffrey Hun. 6pm reached home, mixed all the ingredients well and sent it into the oven. While baking, I had my dinner.

After that, mummy asked me to help her go to the AXS machine to pay her bill. So, I brought love along to central to pay her bill and to search for the cake boxes, but to no avail :( In the end, use a container to package it. Hmmm, appearance, failed! LOLS!

Vanessa sot and Darren chopstick came down to my block to meet me. Meanwhile, love's helping me with the brownie cake, so I brought darling down to meet them. Hees, they love her so much! Lols! After that, love brought my things down and brought darling home.

Drove down to NEX to meet Jaron Mer and Justin. Fetched them over to Jeffrey's home nearby. Reached, Jaron Mer and Justin went to bring Jeffrey over while we light up the candles. Woooo! The lead reached, and had the shock outta his life! (Y)

After we ended it, we drove down to Chomp Chomp to have supper. The food ain't that great. Tsk! Afte eating, everyone went home. Hmmm...

So reluctant to get out of bed today, as I was super tired! But luckily, darling woke up and made a nuisance, to attract my attention. Thank you, my lovely girl! Currently, at work. Love is still sleeping while ahma is helping to look after the two babies. So bad, but I understand. Love had a long night too, though he didn't went out yesterday. Sorry love, and thank you!

Hope time to pass quickly. So I can go home and have my curry chicken, cooked by ahma! Recently, no idea why I've got lots of craving! Lols, suspecting that I'm expecting again. Shall wait mid of February, then test.... LOLS! Updating to here... Bye people!

Look at Beatrice's face, likea gangster!

Love said, totally my split image! Haha!

Oh ya, that's Darren chopstick!

And this, Vanessa sot with darling!

2012-02-02T10:57:00.000+08:00

Hi earthlings. Didn't post yesterday because I'm too lethargic that though I'm doing nothing at work, but I'm tired that I just keep dazing. Same goes to today too. I'm drained completely. Having to wake up in the midst of sleep, to feed her milk. Hmmm.. Recently, don't know what happened, I'm hungry easily too. Booo, and now, I'm hungry too! Can't wait for lunch daily! Oh ya! I've one good news. I've decided to quit smoking! From today onwards. Though I just bought a carton of cigarettes, but never mind, love will smoke it :)

Met with Huat yesterday for a short while, because he wants cigarette. Brought darling down too! Hehes :) After awhile, I went home. Played with Jovan and darling for a short while, darling was tired, so I pacified her to sleep. Less than 5 minutes, she entered her lala-land already! Even snoring away. Lol!

Today, felt very reluctant to attend work because my bed seducing me and darling is awake when I'm leaving. She kept smiling at me, as if trying to make me stay.. Booo! I hoped to stay at home daily to accompany her too, but if I ever does that, who's gonna support us? Sigh... Miss her!

Love will be back today! But due to he will be working till late, he won't be coming home until tomorrow. Miss him god damn much, really... Bet darling too! It's our 10th months together yesterday, and sigh... He's not around!

Mummy's 43 years old today! It's her birthday! Happy birthday to my dearest mummy! Though I've made you disappointed, but you never failed to stop loving me, caring for me. In fact, you encouraged me and support in all decisions I've made. Thank you mummy. For being so tolerant towards my rebellious time and my temper too. You're the best mummy in the world! Love you mummy!

Now.... Shots, lights & films!

This is my darling,

4 months and 29 days old!

2012-01-31T12:02:00.000+08:00

It's gonna be noon in another 30 mins' time. Can't wait for it because it's lunch time and I'm feeling famished now. Grrr... Please, my lunch time and lunch packet, faster come to me! I can't wait for you to satisfy my needs! I need you to stop those groaning and war inside me!

Hmmm, waking up to see it's another day, thinking what's the day today. Hopefully it was Friday but no, it wasn't. It's just Tuesday, the second day of the week. Can't wait for this week to end because love is coming home. I miss him badly. Sigh :x After this week end, love is bringing me on a date to Malaysia with his cliques of friends next Saturday! Can't wait for it!

Today, the last day of January and it seems like my pay is not updated yet :( I'm super broke already. I forked out $50 from my wallet yesterday for the deposit which I couldn't find in my drawer, or neither did it appear in the official receipt's cash. Sigh.. Innocent money just went flying like that. Tsk!

Not long ago, I happened to pass by a blog and that's it. I knew it, I've predicted it and I'm glad that I'm glad for everything to happen ^^ I'm exhausted, wasting my breathe on something which is no longer relevant to me, doesn't weighs a single tonne to me. I'm happy for everything, though it ended out the way I'd least expected. Goodbye, fakers.

Yesterday, I met Huat. We talked about everything. From the past, to the present, to the future.. It just seems like we could talked about anything, as long as it came striking into our mind. We've been missing out on each other so much that the few hours we spent together, eating dinner and chilling out at one certain place, isn't enough for us. More of this should come... Regardless who it is because I really love catching up with old friends, talking about everything that happened in both of our life.

My babygirl yesterday, very playful. She woke up at around 8pm plus in the evening, and after I drove Huat home, she's still awake playing, waiting for me to come home, and sleep together with her. So I did. Played with her awhile and sleep with her. Oh... So loving. Hehes :P

Woah, this post, is super informative, compared to the previous ones. Like it? Perhaps I shall do this everyday! But it depends on whether I've anything to blog about daily or not. Haha, end of post. Bye earth! Today, don't have any pictures to show! So that's all for the day!

2012-01-30T10:34:00.000+08:00

Morning people! It's another Monday, again. I'm definitely not having any Monday blues because I'd enough of rest yesterday. Special thanks to my beloved love for taking care of darling and allowing me to have ample of rest :)

Monday comes so fast, with another blink of eyes, Friday will be here, and love will be back home. Awww.. He's out to sail and I'm gonna miss him badly. The way he caresses me to sleep in his embrace every night.. Booo! Gonna wait for him to be home and be the little girl in his eyes again ^^

I guessed during the time when I'm working, the maid have been carrying darling and Jovan a lot until it became a habit. Darling wants to be carried all the time. Whenever I put her down on the bed, she will create a scene. This is not a very good thing. Hmmm! Oh ya, and both of the lil precious in our family are growing fast. Jovan grew a tooth already! Fast uh..?

Mummy bought a new walker for darling. This is much more suitable for her, regardless in size and music. The music that came out from Jovan's walker is much more louder and irritating. Whereas for darling's walker, so much soothing and the wheels, is very smooth and allows them to push easily. While Jovan's sitting on darling's walker, he literally can move in all directions! Haha, fast baby!

Hmmm.. I've taken my medications regularly and now, my cough syrup has finished and my cough haven't recovered yet! Tsk! So lazy to go back to get more of it and spending another sum of money. Shall let it heal naturally..

Now, look at those fun times pictures!

Darling wearing the traditional dress and tumbled on the bolster!

Now, she has mastered the art of chewing her leg.

Which also means, my second child coming! LOLS!

This is Jovan, sitting on darling's walker.

Sexy baby with hot mama :)

And here, the both chubby babies!

2012-01-28T11:29:00.000+08:00

Well well well.. Look who's back here, who's coming crashing to this site here? Yea, it's me, same usual me :) Oh.. Chinese New Year is always busy in the beginning and after that, it just an ordinary day. Sad thing for me, I fell sick. It dragged on till it's getting serious, I went to consult a doctor.

Monday and Tuesday, busy entertaining relatives. Wednesday, went to consult the doctor and got an MC which got me stuck on bed the whole day, absenting myself from work. Thursday, returned back to office, a huge pile of work to be done. Friday, continued the pile of work. And finally, Saturday, half-day at work and free time to blog! :)

Due to my illness, time spent with love the past few days is less than an hour. Perhaps, not even an hour. He reached home late, and I'm asleep. He went for work before me. Thus, it became like another ordinary person who sleeps beside me. Tsk! Felt so bad about it but I guessed he will be able to understand ^^

As for my precious little girl, she's just the same. But, Chinese New Year really drained all of her energy that she slept for long hours past few days. From evening till the next morning. Woah! Long enough uh..? Hmm, as what love and me observed, she's starting to resembles that guy.. Nowhere to hide, after all, she's his flesh and blood also. No choice.. What to do..?

Just pray for everything is smooth for us :)

2012-01-22T16:06:00.000+08:00

Hi people!
Happy Chinese New Year Eve to all the people out there.

Back here to blog, because... I'm having the mood. Hehes :P Though this year, didn't really buy any new outfit for Chinese New Year, but I think... My wardrobe will be able to sort out some new clothing which I seldom wears, or worst, didn't even touched it once! LOLS!

Currently, waiting for time to pass and for dinner to start. All of my favourite food! Definitely gonna spammed food into my mouth later on! LOLS!

Darling is getting cranky nowadays. Just hope she will get back on track soon!

Hmm.. As for now.. Pictures' time!

My Chinese New Year's Medicure!

My Pedicure..

and this, my gamer baby!

2012-01-20T11:39:00.000+08:00

Morning! Today is a lazy and wet-hair day for me to attend work. Still, attended. Spared a thought for Michael, because who doesn't want to stay home and wait to be paid monthly without doing anything? So, I still prepared and left for work.

Recently, every morning, Jovan will be awake when I'm preparing for work, sometimes, even before I'm awake. Thus, after showering, I will spend some time with him before leaving for work. As for darling, she's definitely will be sleeping. My cute lil piggy sweetie pie! Haha!

Valerie has been going out late at nights almost daily and leaving Jovan sleeping on the bed alone. At times, in the wee hours, everyone is dead sleeping and Jovan's is whinning, nobody bothered, carried on sleeping. Pity love and me, waking up to comfort him. Boo! Tired maximum.

Showed love my temper today morning due to not enough of rest, plus was angry over Valerie's behaviour. Sorry love!

Weather nowadays is giving me a bad headache. Working in office at least cools me down but it definitely doesn't stop the ache. Tsk! New Year is round the corner, I don't wish to celebrate with it! Shooo! Get away from me.

2012-01-19T15:29:00.000+08:00

Hai bloggers! I'm back online! I'm feeling very happy but at the same time, I'm very tired too. Yesterday, 3pm took leave from Michael, my new manager, and he approved it. So I cabbed down to Ubi to get my hair back to straight, rather than perm. Finally, I'm happy with my hairdo now.

After setting my hair back on track, James, love and me cabbed back to Pasir Ris and met up with Chee Yong to have dinner together. We chatted and slacked until 9pm. Love and me left for home. Love took a bath before me. So meanwhile, I played with Jovan and darling. Fun time with them, everyday after a tiring day at work.

Fed darling milk, but she didn't want. She was tired so we put her to bed for her happy lala-land moments. Love and me then looked at blogshops together. I love it when he spends time with me, looking at pretty clothes. Hehes! Do it often with me! Your opinion matters much, though if I really love the clothes, I won't care and just buy, but i still want your opinion! Hahas! Like a baby I am.

I'm here blogging away, while Michael is cleaning up and packing the place. Haha! I think I'm more like the boss! Lmao! Haha! Anyway, he's also good. He takes care of me like how Gideon does too. But sad thing is, Gideon is leaving next month, either 1st or 2nd week of February.

Hah, anyway... Can't wait for Chinese New Year to come. Not because of red packets, but because of the holidays we are entitled to! Lols! Anyway.. I love my small loving family! Hees :)

2012-01-17T11:00:00.000+08:00

Hi people! As I was busy yesterday, I didn't have the time to do up a post here. Sorry about that.

Chinese New Year is approaching, as soon as 4 days' time! Woah~ Faster than I had expected. I just had a new hairdo which I love the colour, flaming red, a lot but I dislike the perms. Booo! I guessed I'm going back to have a new style! Maybe chopping off my hair or I'll just have a reborn! :)

Darling is all prepared for Chinese New Year. As her clothes is stacking up like a jet, we didn't buy any new clothes for her. Lol! Love and I didn't really buy new stuffs too. I bought only an outfit which is for the first day, and that's all! Haha! Well, darling is really active nowadays and she's happy everyday! Haha!

My AuditionSEA is back online! And I'm able to get my ass off the real world to the virtual world again! :) And once again, we're available for Love Party, Cuphea to Aster ^^ Happy much!

Now...

For the new hairdo,

prepared for celebration..

2012-01-13T16:26:00.002+08:00

I know, I shouldn't be blogging about trivial and rubbish stuffs again. But, I can't stopped thinking about it. I just want to rant it all out. I also don't care whether . will read my blog or not, this is my blog, my say. I type what I wants and I need not any permission to do so :)

I've been feeling crappy these few days and I hope it won't continue to last because it is just making me unable to concentrate on work. I took half-day leave yesterday and luckily, today, Gideon is not around. So I can don't care anything and just feel like home. Settled down as early as 8am in the morning at office today, though work started at 9am. Love called and asked about me. I ranted non-stop to him that I could hardly catch my breathe. He understands it, he shares my emotions and I know, it's gonna be hard for him to calm me down and handle it together with me at the same time. But so sorry love, I didn't expected it either.

I felt, why the hell should . bother when I'm not even referring to .? That's the reason why I'm not remorseful at all. I felt offended over those comments . made. I meant, try to say it in another way round, a better point of view, at least none of this would happened. Hmmm, never mind. I shouldn't be thinking of it anyway. Tsk!
Tur tum dai, chun gaw tum dai.

Work is so busy today that I've no time to blog, only until now ;boo AuditionSEA is downed again and I don't know the reason why! Tryin' to fix it back, once again. If I can't, I just have to ask Vanessa for help again. (N)

Anyway, I'm gonna end work soon and love is coming to pick me up from work ^^v So see ya!

2012-01-12T10:03:00.000+08:00

This post, especially for someone. Someone who is once so close to me, my confidant and everything. Over what's happening between yesterday and today, I'm not at all remorseful because I didn't had a single thought of you, you are a whore. I've said Valerie about this strong word yesterday, I just didn't say much. I mean, I don't need to say things to regain everything between us. I just want to get things right between you and me, that's all.

I'm wrong to rake up the past, I admit. But I just want to put it in a way to let you know how I felt. Sorry that you were offended. I knew this part of you hurts you badly which I also know, you haven't really gotten over it. All this time, I knew everything of you. You weren't happy about this fact that you've lost one flesh and blood. But could you please understand me, I'm going through more than you, which is like what you've said, I've made the decision myself.

The amount of hatred I had for him, is not what you can imagined of. It's something worse than hell. You asked me to let this go.. But did you think, I actually thought this through umpteen of times. It's so heart-wrenching for me that I'd almost went deep into depression when I'm still out of job, being a housewife at home. You don't know me at all. I thought, even though you don't want to interfere what's between him and me, but at least you will still be someone I can rely on, trust on, even to the extent of still maintaining our relationship all this while, being my emotional support... But you turned your back on me by saying all those hurtful words to me. I didn't know you actually thought of me this way, that it really struck me deep.

I've never imagined we would turned out this way. Your sarcasm, my hurtful words... Everything that is happening now. You thought, my friends are my world. With or without you, it doesn't matter. But you know, how much it matters to me that you are around? You didn't know this at all. I don't mind what others had thought about you, stood by you and everything, but is this what I get in return?

I thought you would have washed your hands off everything between him, and me. But in the end, you still stood up for him. Isn't what you told me contradicting? You wouldn't know what his mother did. You don't know the story. So don't accuse me for pulling a innocent party into the picture. I'm just stating some facts which he, didn't told you all.

After all, everything is what "I thought". None of it really exists, isn't it? You are the closest to me, in the past, not now anymore. You are true, but now, are you? I don't know which is you anymore. You are gone from what you are. You changed, I changed. And it all comes down to, because of him. Yea, I still blame him. But you won't know everything inside me. Because, you are no longer someone I can rely on anymore. You are Jasmine, a Jasmine that I knew last time, and not now anymore.

For everything you think you are right, for everything I think I'm right, sorry.

Sorry that this happened.

Sorry that you care more about him than us.

Sorry to even had you, once.

2012-01-11T10:59:00.000+08:00

What a wet Wednesday morning.. I'm late for work, having to wake up at 7.40am @.@ That's the time when I usually preparing to leave my home. So, I quickly get out of my bed and went to take a quick bath. Woah! Was damn fast can! Took 20 mins to prepare everything, left out at 8am! Woah woah~ Cool man! But.... Stuck at the bus stop for 20 mins, and last resort, went to take a cab to work. Thanks to the traffic jam, it made the fare went up by additional $4! Kns!

Came to work without breakfast, and made me have plain white bread for breakfast. Booooo! After having breakfast, went round the Condominium for inspection of their attendance and opened the letter box. After returning back to the office, there's a lot of typing work to do. So keep doing it and it takes me an hour to complete it. Cool~

Miss love a lot :'( Spent the night without love at home yesterday. Took care of Beatrice myself last night. Lucky she slept with me when I'm going to sleep. Hehes :P Good girl! But today went I left for work, she didn't wake up for her milky! Tsk! Wonder if she had her milky already not... Tsk tsk!

Told the uncle who buys my lunch daily, not to buy for me today because I may be going out to the bank. But if I'm not going, I'll stay in office to sleep! Yay! Haha! I think I'm going to end my post here! Bye bye!

“Elegance is refusal.”

-Coco Chanel

2012-01-10T10:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO YUWEI(FISH) & WEIHAO(BOSS)!

Back to work. Was on leave yesterday to bring darling to Polyclinic for her injection! She was frightened badly and cried for 1 minute. My poor girl :x Coughing badly, flu's gonna recover but my throat, in deep pain! Damned those swell! Tsk!

Love is going on sailing soon, and won't be back home today. So I guessed, I'm gonna sleep alone tonight, again~ Boo! Gonna missed him badly :x

Darling... Haha! The sunshine in my life. She just can't stopped gumming on her fingers, until the surrounding of her mouth is covered with her saliva. Sometimes, even cleaned her hand on my face. My naughty girl! Haha! But I love her madly!

Now... For pictures' time! :D

Happy 21st, Fish and Boss! :)

Our cocked face! LOLS :x We didn't agreed together!

Same goes to this!

See, this is how she chews on her fingers!

And her serious face, looking at her toys, preventing people to take it away from her!

And lastly, Saffron to Cuphea. Thanks Hun!

2012-01-06T10:57:00.001+08:00

Grabbing some time out of today's busy schedule, just to post while uploading Jovan's pictures on my facebook. Hees :D

Past two days, fat fat has been making me angry because the tone that he's using to communicate with me was too strong and it sounded more like a command. Pfft! :@ So, all I did was to ignore him throughout till the next morning. And... He picked me up from work yesterday and he's gonna do so again, today :) Love it when he picks me up from work, and if he could, sends me to work too. But his working time is earlier than me, that's why he can't send me to work. Instead, if I'm driving to work, I would wake up as early as 6am to send ahma to work, drive home to prepare, have breakfast with him and send him to work. But recently, I didn't drive to work because was very tired. I guessed this is how the working society goes. No matter how tired you will be, it's your responsibility to get up and report for work. Tsk! Gotta get used to it!

Hmmm.. Darling has been shouting this few days. I guessed this is part of growing up for them. Haha! Listening to her shouts makes me happy though it's kinda noisy. Yet, a noisy environment brings warmth to the family. Haha!

As for myself.. I've played back Audition. Almost everyday after work, goes home and take a short bath, have dinner and then.. I will go online. Hees :D I feel like I'm the motivation of my room's people. Once I'd played back, didi, Valerie and even fat fat, plays back too! Haha! Funny people... Well, I do enjoy this life. I love the things fat fat learns and then enjoys it together with me! :3 Though my Audition wasn't married with him, but I'm not gonna leave him. One day, I'll marry him in this real life, rather than the virtual world! Love you fat! Not forgetting, our beloved precious daughter too!

Picture's time!

Darling's looking at the com's screen, ignoring me :x

Ahh.. Now she spotted me and gave me this kawaii look!

Jovan's enjoying gumming his water water toys..

Wedding, once again on the last day of 2011.

Love party, Lavender to Daisy! ^^v

2012-01-05T13:54:00.009+08:00

I'm not free to put up a post today,

so I'm just sharing one of the favourite songs I've been listening to,

these few days, on FM 98.7 :D

Enjoy :)

2012-01-04T11:48:00.000+08:00

Morning guys! It's a new day to start again. And here I am, working still. Haha! So tired though slept quite early last night. Although I'm awake for work but I'm again, reluctant to leave for work because darling was awake this morning when I'm all prepared to leave for work. She stared at me, yearning for me to stay and play with her. Yet, I can't fulfil her wish because I need to be responsible for my work. I'm into the working society, no longer like my school's life, I can absent as long as I want, as and when..

My standard routine, very practical. Weekdays, wakes up in the morning, prepare for work. When time's up, leaves for home. Take a short bath, eats and then play Audition for awhile, the rest of the time for Beatrice and milord. As for weekends, on alternate Saturdays, working till 1pm and leave for home again. If there's planning to bring Beatrice out, will rush home to change and bring out. If not, stay at home. Same goes to Sundays. Very practical uh..? I devoted all my time and off days to work and my lil family. Those remaining short hours, to Audition and out-going. Hmmm! Simple life I'm leading now.

Milord is going to sail for a short time during next week. Gonna miss him badly :x As for his health, his fever has subsided but he's still having diarrhea. Poor thing.. Can't take care of him because we both have to work. Hopefully he will recover soon!

Darling... Hmmm, as playful still. Oh ya! We weighed her at the baby spa that day and she was 6.2Kg already! Hoho! Growing well! Good good!

And now... For the pictures!

2012-01-03T09:47:00.000+08:00

Happy Belated 2012 to Everyone!

Sorry for the late posting, was spending my holidays' time with my small family, though it's tiring, but it's a happy thing to do! Half-day on Saturday, brought Jo Jo to work with me, because she's awake and has nothing to do at home. After work, went to Whitesands to buy food for all of them. Slacked at home, sleep for awhile, milord went out to Yong's birthday celebration & I went out to meet Valentine. Together, we went to crash Boon Kiat's home because he's injured, and can't leave home. So, we went to accompany him and celebrated New Year together with him :D Love all this gathering a lot!

Sunday, rested at home! Spent the whole time with darling and she loves it, when I'm at home, playing with her whenever she's awake!

Monday, no work! It's a public holiday! Woke up as early as 9am, helped darling to cut her nails when she's still sleeping soundly. Waited for Jovan & darling to be awake, ahma showered for them, then waited again, for Valerie to wake up @.@ Fetched ahma to the salon and drove the car back so I'm able to drive it. Reached home, showered and left home with Jo Jo, milord, Valerie, Jovan and darling.

Drove to Nex, combed Nex for the Baby Spa. Found it at the Sky garden and waited patiently for their turns. Brought Jo Jo to the Food Junction to buy water for them and on the way up, Valerie called to say it's darling's turn. So, hurriedly, we went up! Darling went in and doesn't like it because the float trapped her head, while Jovan.. Loves it a lot that he's doing fine inside the pool! So, I've to hold on to darling while she's inside, paid fullest attention to only her.

After their baby spa, we went to Toa Payoh, Tai Ma's home because she wanted to take a look at Jovan and darling. Spent approximate an hour there and left for home. On the way home, called to order food and drove down there to collect it. Reached home, we're all gobbling down the food because we're super hungry! Jo Jo went home yesterday. Kinda miss her :'(

Everything ended, and it marks the end of my holiday D: Was very reluctant to report to work today because milord fell sick last night. He was running a fever and I couldn't sleep in peace, only after knowing his fever slightly dropped after I placed the Kool pad on his forehead, then I could rest in peace. Well, and here I am, at work, doing nothing. Hah, should be working, but I'm blogging! Lol! This is how I managed my time at work most of the time. And now... Pictures' time!

This is darling, giving a forceful smile for the camera.

And Jovan, enjoying it!

2011-12-30T11:41:00.000+08:00

Morning earthlings! Here I'm back again, making this blog so so alive! Hees :D I'm gonna make it a point to update almost everyday, I guessed the everyday means whenever I'm at work. Because other than work, I actually lazy to blog from home, because milord will be sitting behind me, peeping at what I'm blogging. *So shy* :s Haha!

Gideon is back from his annual leave & I'm so happy about it because somebody is doing nothing with me, rather than myself. Prolly, the only disadvantage is I can't sleep at anytime I like at work. I have to stay awake when he's in the office and when he's out for some time, I'll make use of the time to sleep! Hoho, ain't I'm clever :p

Milord took 2 days MC since yesterday. He should rest well at home. He's been taking care of darling whenever when the night arrives, and I'm in my lala-land. Oops :x Sorry b! Rest well at home!

Darling is still the same... Very playful! Haha!

And lastly, to all my friends.. I love every single one of you. You're my strongest pillar which I know I can rely on for a lifetime without doubting. Friends, I mean those who are true and always here. Not those who come and go as and when you like. Lol! Sorry, I may be mean, but this is actually the fact. I'm very blessed and lucky to meet you people in this world. Though it seems small but it has such a big population, and it is such a blessing. Some people they have only a few who are true to them, but to me, I have more than 5 or maybe, even reaching 15 numbers of true friends! I love you peoples! You rocks my world so much, so many! \m/

And lastly, this is Niu Niu's latest picture. She's currently at Pamela's home which we have given Niu Niu away to her, due to Jovan and Beatrice at home. I'd rather give her away then to see my princess suffering! *Touch wood* Well, I hope she's doing well over there. I don't miss you, seriously, but I miss my Xiao Lao Hu and Coffee a lot! Tsk! Hope all of them met a kind owner!

Signing off,
Katherine :)

2011-12-29T17:16:00.001+08:00

I'm back to posting on blog. A standard one, not those short rubbish I always type.

This month, my pocket got a big hole. It's festive season & expenditure increased highly. I spent all my savings on darling's daily needs, X'mas gifts... There goes my long term savings.. But luck came knocking on my door. A big thanks to Eileen, asked me to replace her on work while she starts her maternity leave. And..... More luck came, Thomas, my boss, gave me a position to work full time. So from next month onwards, January 2012, I'll be working full time, which means, company's benefits & standardize pay!

1 week ago, my heart was broken & I told milord about it. My babyJ broke our violet ring without telling me, only the next day. My heart was really smashed, my mood really went down to the deepest of hell, my heart sank & our efforts went down the drain. I couldn't believe it, but to realise, for all this to happen, it was only because of me. I was neglecting him a lot, due to my pregnancy period, confinement period & looking after Beatrice. Milord isn't happy about the fact that I was upset about this, & was keeping it from me because I know it would hurts him to witness my unhappiness. So I had to hang on strong & firm for the sake of him, Beatrice & myself. But not long later, a few days back, we patched things up & coupled back. Though I kept saying he has an itchy finger for breaking it, but I didn't blame him. Maybe.. Like what he said, a new year, a fresh beginning. Now things has returned back to what it was, I'm certainly happy about it! Hees :)

Things between milord & me... I knew he doesn't like the fact that I kept hanging out w Vanessa because I've been taking away the time we are spending together, even... Playing Audition everyday for at least 1 & a half hour, & leaving the rest of the time, spending only like about 1 hour more or less for him & the rest to sleep. I know milord has been keeping quiet because he wants me to be happy. All this things I know, dear. Thank you for always putting me in the first place. I love you, & never will leave you!

Beatrice, our darling girl.. She has learnt how to hold her milk bottle, except for times when the bottle is heavy & she can't get hold of it. Now, she's learning how to walk even when she haven't learn how to turn & flip, crawl & etc... Ain't my darling taking a big step? Hah, as times passed, she's getting more & more active, while milord & me are getting more & more tired, as she sleeps in later than us, at times. Lol! This is my playful girl. I think she inherited my "over-active"'s genes! But anyway, we're happy to spend time together. I love the way she cackles away whenever we play together, the way she fall asleep unknowingly & everything about her. My dear girl, love you always!

Hmmm, coming to an end of the post. I gave this web-page a new look for it has been feeling "rusty" for being the same since a long long time ago. I like this, I was working & I'm bored, so I thought of giving this a new look, a new beginning, since 2011 is coming to an end, & 2012 is arriving in another 2 days' time! Well, I had hope after 2011 ends, 2012 will be a better year for everyone, as this year, my surroundings met with an bad period, experience & mood throughout the year! Well.. It's time I should get going. I'm about to end work in 30 mins' time, & gotta pack all my things. So bye people!

Had bet milord will be satisfied to finally read a standardize blog! :D

2011-12-29T11:01:00.001+08:00

My pretty princess!

Super excited for Underwater World!

Their "blur-sotong"'s face! :D

Jovan + us!

Brought Jo Jo along too!

Going home & she's happy to be able to go out!

Club, after so long! PH!!

Like a boss!

Ken!

Venetia!

& this is my fav GGR, shopping at Orchard!

Milord was with us too!

Me & my nonsense!

Oceanz, Stephanie's birthday!

& lastly, Merry X'mas!

Above, were all the pictures taken when all the fun came! Have a nice day people!

2011-12-27T12:01:00.000+08:00

Hello people! It's gonna be a month since I started working at Changi Court Condominium. I'm feeling good about this work because there's not much stress about it & I'm super free at work. Only when times there are residents coming in, then I'll have things to do. Other than that, nothing much. Unless Gideon, my manager asked me to do things or check files. Lol!

Darling's going to be 4 months old on 1st Jan 2012 which is next Monday. Super fast! Times when milord & me together with her, it's very very fun! Because watching her grow, really brings comfort to me. Especially when watching her sleeping, so peaceful.. It clears my mind & makes me relax! Love this & I'm gonna do this until I grow old!

As for milord & me, still quarreling as often but stuck to each other like glue, won't be apart. So I believed our love is strong enough to overcome everything, together! Love my lil family maximum! Gonna work so hard to give both of them a good time!

2011-12-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

Today is my 1st day at work. Quite happy as it's very slacking. Though a lot of things for me to remember, but I'm okay with it. It's not stress either :)

Darling went for her 2nd month jab today & I guessed she didn't cry? Hehes xD She's my happy pill daily !

As for love, though arguements occurred, but I know that he's someone I can't lose, neither could I give up. I promise to love him with all my life.

Regarding myself, my temper getting worse, as staying home makes me think a lot. Together, looking after 2 babies ain't an easy job which leads to the fatigue I'm suffering. Stress as I am, thinking about money, future, our marriage & apartments... In future, gotta add in transportation, all requires money. So I'm gonna work, save & scrimp as much as I could now, for raining days & future purposes! Hehes, now gonna show you peoples my lil family :D Enjoy!

2011-11-14T15:13:00.001+08:00

Back to blogging because love is complaining that I've bugged him to update his blog, but I didn't update my own. Lol! Temper has been very bad nowadays. Perhaps because I'm mentally & physically drained, & it affected my attitude. Lil bit things also cannot, ended up, quarreling with love, & having cold wars. Felt bad but didn't utter much either. Boooo!

Ling is very healthy, except that she didn't shit daily. Plus, the colour of her shit still remains at green. It's not a very healthy colour though. Shall give her more water to drink I guessed! Her appetite though increased to 1 small bottle of milk which is around 140-150 ml, but she drinks it every 4-5 hours. Roughly, 4-5 times daily. Tsk tsk!

That jerk is back & I keep having a bad feeling about it. Grrr~ This sucks!

As for Valerie, she still remains the same. Keep clubbing, drinking, staying away from home, late returns & stuffs... She blames Christina for her current becoming, so irresponsible & childish! Talking about her makes my blood boil. Arrgh!

It's pretty sad for Jovan to have such a mother, who didn't spare a thought for him, always use him as excuse to absent from work or other matters. Whenever Valerie is home, & Jovan is with her, Jovan always look at us with a sympathy look, as if hoping we will carry him away from her. Sigh... I feel the heartaches for him. Booo! Shall stop here.

2011-11-07T22:42:00.001+08:00

Kewl -.-" Finally there's a desktop computer available for me to use though it sucks maximum that it didn't even have 1gb ram in it D: At least it can be used. Thanks to Wei Hao that he came up to help me connect the com to my internet. If not keep tap others' internet connection, also useless, because it doesn't help much.

Love is hiding behind me trying to peep on what I'm typing. He has been bugging me to update my blog but didn't have the time. Thanks to the bitch who gave birth to Jovan. Shall touch on it later. Thanks to love, who has been helping me to take care of darling whenever I'm dead tired, allowing me to have sufficient rest. Oh, in additional, we're going to get married very soon. I know he's trying to give me a good life but all i want is everyone connected to us safe & sound, he stays by my side throughout, like what he's doing now, & it's enough for me already :D Anyway, love you b!

As for darling, getting older as days passes by. Happy thing to say is, she can finish a bottle of milk which is 120ml! Yet, it only depends on her mood. It's not a always thing. She has learnt how to turn though not a everytime thing. Currently looking forward to her first crawl & first tooth! :D

As for myself, I'm really tired because I'm taking care of two babies, rather than 1. Thanks to an irresponsible mother in the house. Gave birth to 1 but seldom take care of her son. Keep going on to clubs & drinks every week. I really don't understand why she chose to give birth in the first place when she doesn't enjoy enough of teenagers' life. Stupid girl, all she does is bring trouble to everyone. Damned! Very tired to nag at her already. Shall hope that she stops going overboard before I takes drastic acts.

Shall stop here & post darling's pictures :)

2011-10-18T12:33:00.000+08:00

A short picture post for the day!

Darling likes to bath because she can play water.

Small happy family.

Father & daughter bondings!

Darling smiling!

Girlfriends!

Lastly, happy birthday to me!

2011-10-13T14:50:00.000+08:00

Ohaiyo! I finally have the time to use the lappy to come online to blog. Was rather busy recently. Nora flew to her sister's side to try working for her sister employer there at another country. If she's satisfied, she's gonna stay there to work. If not, she will return to us. However, she did promised us verbally that she will be back. Now at home, the new maid, lin, is so slow, stupid & we have communication problems. She doesn't understand what we're talking, even simple english, so we have to repeat a few times before she get the meaning. No choice, gotta use her for temporary while the agency find another replacement for her. We have to change her away. In addition, the agency helped us to find our old maid, Nida, but she has already married & moved to another country. That's all we have of her news & she's uncontactable.

Currently, without Nora at home, I'm doing everything myself, only thing I don't have to do is the household chores. Taking care of darling is a usual thing that I've been doing since darling has been born. Every night, I have been taking care of her myself, sometimes, with dearest's help. Then once the sun's out, I'll let Nora taka over awhile while I get some sleep. But now, no. I take care of darling at night, then in the day, I also do everything myself. The only time I sleep in is when darling is asleep. When she's awake, I'm awake too. Now, additional job to do is to help darling & Jovan to bath early morning & clean their body in the evening. Tiring...

Jovan has been sick for a period of time previously but now, he's recovering while darling fell sick. Perhaps is because they stays together & Jovan passed it to darling. Poor darling... Brought darling to the clinic just now & have to be on medication now.

Birthday is round the corner, coming Sunday. Hopefully I've the time to go out with dearest, even a few hours will do. 1 good news is, dearest's daddy knew about darling & me, yet he accepted it to my surprised! Now, left dearest's ahgong! Hopefully is another good news too! Hmm! Okay, shall stop here!

2011-10-05T09:00:00.000+08:00

Happy 22nd Birthday, Dearest Andrew Lim!

It's your day & you're out on sail. Aww, this sucks! But its alright, since this year, we're gonna celebrate our birthday together at MBS! Hopefully Nora won't be flying over to her sister's side to try out, if not... GG for us!

Darling is having slight cough & flu, & her appetite... really cannot make it. Though she can finished 1 bottle of milk at times now, but after her milky, she will vomit out. Walao! Her weigh now is 4Kg plus only. Doctor says her growth is slow while Jovan growth is good! He's already 5Kg plus! Lol!

Being a mother, not an easy task. Responsibilities, commitment & patience.. But I'm slowly getting used to it already. Have been taking care of darling myself most of the time. She's really adorable when she smiles & you'll follow-suit, but when she cries... That's when you have to be patience in making her calm down, rather than being annoyed & slow things.

Though things change when I'd her now, but still, I'm contented with all that come :)

2011-10-03T11:34:00.000+08:00

Hola! I'm back! :D Neglected Twitter, so does here. Was busy because... My confinement period ended on the 1st, so was able to bath. On top of that, brought darling out to have her 1st hair-cut! Ohhh, there goes her pretty soft hair. After all this, Christina brought us out for lunch buffet at East Coast Park. Next, Christina brought darling home while dearest & me went to his mummy's side to have my hair trim & colour :) So nice, after all this.

Yesterday, was dearest's lunar calender birthday. Thus, we went out together with his family to have dinner to celebrate it. Was happy that his mummy can accept both of us though having the 3-5 years promise between dearest & his mummy.

Today, dearest left for his 1 week sail. Gonna miss him much! Woke up at 8am, prepared to bring Jovan & darling to visit the clinic because Jovan has on-off fever, cough & flu while darling also has slight cough. On the way out, met the massage auntie on the door & recalled that I've appointment with her. So... I stayed home while Christina, Nora & mummy brought the two lil ones out. Tsk!

Today, also Nora's birthday. Happy birthday, Nora! Hopefully she changed her mind & stay to continue working for us. If not, with the new maid, life will be hard for us..

Hmm, that's all for today! Now, for the picture!

2011-09-26T11:07:00.001+08:00

Hello readers! I'm back again! Didn't manage to post during past two days, as I was busy & dead tired! Darling's baby shower was a successful one! She received lots of presents & red-packets :) She's sure a rich one now with lots of new clothings. Hahas :D

On the 24th, lots of people were here to my crib, together with their gifts & blessings! I'm pretty sure darling will grow up to be a blessed child in future ^^ It was so busy that I couldn't really entertain everyone that much as people coming almost every 15 minutes..? Yuppes, I'm sorry about that! But darling, dearest & me were really happy that day. Thanks to those who attended it, you guys made this baby shower a successful & memorable one!

Yesterday, due to taking care of darling & Jovan for two nights, was dead tired that I was lazy to blog. So sorry, but yesterday had a good night sleep, together with the storms because mummy took care of them last night! Hehes :p

Tomorrow darling will be going back to KK Hospital to check up. Hopefully everything will be alright for her! Shall post tomorrow when I've the time again! Byebye!

2011-09-23T16:51:00.000+08:00

Today is the 23rd, & tomorrow, is darling's baby shower. I'm gonna dress her up pretty pretty! Next week, she's gonna shave bald too. There goes her soft brown hair. Darling's so naughty today. I added a lil almond water to her milk & she finds it delicious that she continue to drink it even though she's fulled! Resulted, she vomited. So I changed her shirt. She fell asleep until mummy came home, she's awake! Christina carried her & she vomited her phelgm. Thus, I changed for her again. Zzz!

Dearest took night shift, taking care of darling last night. He didn't have much sleep & today, he even went to Sheng Siong to buy drinks for tomorrow darling's baby shower. Dearest has been slogging for darling & me, taking care of us, & I, felt the heartaches :(

October is coming! Dearest's & my birthday are coming too! Planned to celebrate our birthday together, only the two of us, at Marina Bay Sands Hotel. It's already booked! 1 day for ourselves, & the rest, are for our friends. Dearest & Christina are also getting me an iPad! So happy ;) Hehes xD

I'm gonna go work perhaps next month, back to my same job. Though dearest told me to rest till next year, then go work so that I can take the time to recuperate. But I didn't want dearest to carry such a heavy burden by working alone, thus, decided to start work as soon as possible. Womb has been giving me problems since yesterday. Shall hope it gets better soon! Shall blog again, maybe tomorrow if I've got the time! Bye bye! :)

2011-09-18T21:00:00.002+08:00

Walao! I thought I can upload picture with this new apps, Blogger, but I tried & failed again! Booo! Never mind, it's alright! Shall update soon! This coming Saturday, it's our dear adorable lil princess's baby shower!! & soon she will be shaved bald, have a nails cut!!! A new fresh look for her! Awww, can't wait to see that moment while I'll miss her soft brown hair!

Didn't talk to love at all today because when he's sleeping, I'm awake & when he's awake, I'm asleep! Why like that?! Tsk! Because yesterday while shitting, I think I hurt my stitches that caused me to have pain for the entire night while made me unable to sleep. Until today morning, the stitches wore off & I'm wasn't in much pain, so I'm able to sleep in the day.

It's Sunday today & love went to work for his uncle because he was cash-strapped due to making payment for his phone's bill. I feel the heartpain for him & wants to quickly end this confinement period, goes to work soon but love wants me to have more rest even after confinement due to my poor health...

Hopefully my health will gets better in no time so I can share the burden with love! Hmm, shall stop here! :)

2011-09-16T12:26:00.002+08:00

Hi people! I'm back to blogging since I'm so free because I'm serving my confinement! It's been 2 weeks already, so I have to endure another 2 weeks before my confinement period ends! It's okay, time passes fast & I've dearest by my side, accompanying me :)

Today, the new maid comes. The new bed for dearest & me, the new wardrobe for us too! Like a new start for us! We'll have our small room, our privacy time! Hehes! So happy! Can't wait man! Oh ya, the new maid is small in size! Hopefully she can adapt to our home, & working with Nora!

As for our lil girl, she slept for 1 whole day yesterday! She's super zai lo! Sleep so long! Hahas! Yesterday Nora took care of her for the night because dearest & I were tired after taking care of her at night, the day before yesterday! She kept playing & doesn't wants to sleep! So naughty! Tsk! But we still love her!

Oh ya, last but not least, we're holding darling's baby shower on the 24th this month! So fast right?! Yeah~ Can't wait to dress her up pretty pretty & welcome all our guests! Hees, that's all for today! Have a nice day earthlings!! Byeeeeee~!!

2011-09-11T02:49:00.000+08:00

Time check now, it's 2.33 in the morning, on the 11th this month. Darling is 10 days old already! :) She's doing very fine except that, she has a small appetite, unlike Jovan. Hopefully as days goes by, darling appetite will increased to normal. If not, she will be so small-sized! Tsk!

Both darling & dearest are so closed & I suspect that it's because when darling is still in my womb, dearest kept talking to her, that's why their bonding is so close. Darling also listens to dearest, loves to play & talk with him! Darling almost every morning 5.30 wakes up to wait for dearest because dearest needs to attend to work. After seeing dearest, she waits for her shower! Lololol!

Yesterday, dearest was drunk that he didn't clean darling's butt clean then he changed the pamper. Angry die me! Worry die me too! I don't like seeing dearest drink because he tends to feel pain after the alcohol's effect
has gone down. Sigh, I hope he lived up to his promise, to limit himself whenever he's going to drink..

As for me, the swell has went down & my stitches are recovering! My figure is coming back too but expensive okay! Though my movement is still not as good as before but at least I'm able to rely on myself to get up now. Had massage for the past few days & total, I need to ask the massage auntie to come help me massage for 2 weeks & it costs $60 per session! Yet, it's effective & worth it :) I may look better than the days I'm in hospital but dearest is still very worry about my health. I do hope my health will improved so that dearest won't be so worried about me & that I can give him a healthy baby soon :p

Okay, darling & Jovan are going to be awake at anytime because their feeding time is up! I shall get going now! Bye people & I shall update soon again!

2011-09-05T09:40:00.001+08:00

Hi earthlings! I'm back & I've a good news to share with you guys! I've already delivered my darling baby girl on 1st Sept, 0819am :) She's very pretty & cute! Love her maximum!

Shall now share with you all the experience on that day! On 1st Sept, baby & I were sleeping soundly & suddenly, I had a bad pain on my womb. It was 3am plus at that time. So.. I woke baby up & told him. He asked whether do I need to go to the hospital, so I replied him :"no, wait awhile more then we shall see." Thus, we went back to sleep. 5 minutes later, the pain came back & I couldn't endure. Woke baby up again & told him I need to use the latrine. He held on to me till I reached the toilet door & waited for me outside.

After I finished my business, I looked into the toilet bowl & found out, I had slight bleeding. Immediately, I went out, told him :"I think I need to go to the hospital already. But wait, let me bath first." He laughed & he too, went to bath. While all this were happening, Valerie was wide awake, taking care of Jovan.. So after I had my bath, mummy were half-awake looking at me. Both mummy & Valerie asked am I gonna give birth. So I nodded my head.. So mummy woke up & went to wash up while I looked for baby. He said I bathed for quite some time, so he laid on bed awhile more. He packed my things, while I waited for him at the living room.

Mummy walked out to the kitchen, so I followed suit. She made a piece of bread & chicken essence for me with my consent, for fear I might be hungry & when I needed to push, I've no
energy. I sat at the living room, eating my bread while mummy fed Jovan before leaving the house. Got onto the car with baby & mummy, & sped to KK hospital.

Reached the delivery suite, did some procedures, & they immediately sent me into the delivery room. Lying there with baby's companion, slowly the pain became more intolerable. I cried & even pleased mummy & baby to allow me have caesarian. I was rejected so I endured. The nurse helped me to put drip on my left hand for my cervix to open & instructed me not to move my left hand around. Yet, I was in great pain that I didn't heed her words. Mummy came in the room while baby went out to sign some papers. Mummy asked the nurse to let me breathe the laughing gas as they said it would helped easing the pain because of the floating sensation. But to me, I felt much worse to have that feeling. At 0500am plus, the doctor came in & checked. She said she suspect that my cervix will opened much faster than average, which was 1 hour a centimetre. She even burst my waterbag for me. As time passed, I cried without tears, just holding onto baby's hands.

When my cervix was opened to 7cm big, I could felt darling wanted to come out. So I pushed even though mummy asked me not to push. At 0800am, the doctor came to check again, my cervix was already 8-9cm opened. Thus, they gathered the mid-wife & they waited for me to push & instructed me to start pushing when the pain comes. So after pushing for a few time on counts of 10 seconds, darling arrived on earth! The next minute mummy called baby due to baby didn't replied her message. It was 0815am mummy messaged baby to ask him tell the doctor to let me take the epidural jab but because the situation was so tensed up, baby ignored. When he answered the call from mummy, he told mummy darling was out & mummy was shocked. She didn't expected it to be so fast.

Baby carried darling while I laid there shivering tremendously. The nurse asked if I want to carry darling, I shook my head because I was drained out. Baby talked & played with darling while waiting for the other doctor to came..

After the doctor came, baby went out to show mummy darling's picture while the doctor was doing some repair work at my vagina for they cut open it. It was swollen & mummy said because I pushed when my cervix isn't fully opened. So when she was doing the stitches, I was in pain even though she had already given me the a anesthetic jab. Meanwhile, they sent darling up to the ward first while I'm having my stitches. Baby accompanied me throughout.

When the doctor was done, the nurse came in & helped me changed. She pushed a wheelchair with a float on top of it & when baby saw the float, he laughed. Walao! He didn't know the pain I'm suffering when sitting down, especially when it was swollen! Tsk!

Mummy waited for me at the ward. Accompanied me awhile with baby, they left for breakfast & home after that because they need to go home to bring lunch for me. So while they were home, I rested... Stayed in for a day, & was discharged together with darling the next day..

Thinking back, it was a memorable experience to remember. I can even have tears of joy because the pain I suffered was worth it after hearing darling's cries.

Now that darling's out, I'm drained, baby were drained & so does mummy. Thanks god that they were there through tough times. Okay, it's a long post already! Shall stop here & update darling's picture here when my lappy is back from repair because I can't seem to use my phone to post the pictures up here. So, just have to wait! Bye guys!

I'm already a mummy & so does baby, a daddy!! ♥

2011-08-24T11:32:00.000+08:00

Morning world! I'm back to posting again!

Body aches has became worse during nights when I'm going to bed. Guessed it's because precious coming out soon! Predicted next week precious will be out, first week of September. Feeling weak all over since past 2 days. Didn't even have the appetite for dinner & lunch, the only meal I ate is breakfast. So.. Since 2 days ago, I've only been eating breakfast. Tried to eat at least a lil during dinner but to no avail, I'll just vomit out what I ate during night.

Just like last night, went Changi Airport to fetch uncle back home, bought a 6-inch bread to eat yet I knew that I couldn't finish, so I split it into two & shared it with maid. Even it's already a small portion, but I can't even finish :x I thought at least I had something but when I was about to sleep, I vomited out everything :/ Arrgh! This sucks! Like that how my lil precious girl got nutrients?!?!

Feeling more & more tired lately.. But have to take care Jovan. Sometimes, don't know Jovan is my son or Val's. All the time is mummy, maid & I take care. All Val does is lie on bed, watch television, use her phone & sleep. Zzz! Maybe first week after she has given birth, she like that, we cab understand because she has stitches. But now already second week, yet, what she does can't be compared us at all! Failure as a mother. Tsk!

Bet when baby comes home from sailing, I will be nagged by him, for my poor appetite, for making myself so tired even when I could have give birth anytime now. Booo! No choice, I tried to eat but my stomach just don't want to take in any food. Sigh..

Tomorrow morning have to bring Jovan to the doctor for his Jaundice check-up while my appointment is during late noon. Hopefully everything will be good for both of us!

Lappy ain't repaired yet D: Have to solely rely on phone totally! Tsk! Never mind, since I also cannot sit long in front of lappy, so shall make do with it. Okay! Gotta go, have to feed Jovan already! Bye!!!

2011-08-21T11:58:00.001+08:00

Lappy's down, there's nothing I can do. So here am I, blogging with my phone. Shall make it a short & simple one :) & ya, I do feel like creating a tumblr account as tumblr allows phone posting, much much more easier than blogger! Tsk! Shall see how lo..

My big baby is out to sail; to "outer space" he claimed. Will only be back on 26th, coming Friday. Next, my precious baby is matured enough to deliver anytime. Yet, I'm having this feeling that she will be out end of this month. If not, it will be the first week of September. Hopefully my precious girl will be out when my big baby is back!

As for Valerie, she has already given birth to BabyJovan weighing 3.7Kg @.@ Omg, she had a hard time giving birth to him because he was big. She even took Epidural as she can't withstand the pain. Now, she's serving her confinement & BabyJovan is taken care by mummy, maid & me. Soon, BabyBeatrice will be out too! Though I can't wait to welcome BabyBeatrice to this world, but at the same time, I'm also afraid of the delivering part... Well, if others can do it, why not me?! I believe I can!! I have mummy, my big baby & lots of friends' support, so I'll be able to take it & give birth to a healthy baby! Hees :))

Coming Thurs, gotta go check up. My check up routine has been scheduled to every week once. Though my appetite hasn't been well, but I'll try to eat as much as possible! BabyBeatrice, mummy will try to give you as much nutrients as possible alright! Love you baby! So does my big baby! Muacks!

2011-08-04T15:02:00.000+08:00

Cool~ It's been a month since I last posted things here. My lappy was down, so does the rest of the coms at home. So I couldn't blog. But since mummy bought a new lappy, I'm abe to blog & if only I'm not lazy.

Baby is growing well inside my womb & we have finally decide on baby's name, Beatrice. However, because milord & me have not register our marriage, baby will follow my surname for the time being. Time passes fast & in a month's time or lesser, babyBeatrice will meet the world. Milord is excited, so am I.

During this period of time, really thank milord a million times for being here for me. Without him, times will be harder & during nights when I'm in pain, I'll be going through alone. Just like last Thursday, when I'm having fake contractions & everyone thought I'm gonna give birth, milord accompanied me to the hospital despite having work the next day. Thank you dear :)

Okay, I guessed I'm stopping here. Feeling very uncomfortable now. Bye people! Will update soon again when I'm not so lazy. Byeee!

2011-07-02T15:00:00.000+08:00

Hi to the world ! Milord went sailing today. I'm supposed to wake him up at 5.45am today, but the muddle-head me forgotten that the alarm was set to ring only during weekdays. So even if I on it, it doesn't ring because today it's a Saturday. Only to found out went milord woke me up at 7am, telling me that it's 7am, & asking whether did I heard my alarm ring. & when I replied, I didn't heard it, he assumed that I was too tired. But after being awake, then I realised it was my folly :x But luckily, he was in time. If not, he will be charged & I'll be the caused of it :\ Sorry, my dearest milord!

Baby is growing rapidly recently that it causes me pain at times. But baby likes it whenever milord talk & play with her. Yesterday, due to an unexpected thing, we went to Tampines Mall. After solving it, we went to shop for baby's thing. Looking at those small tiny clothes, shoes & gloves, prams & stuffs, baby was so happy that she's awake & gave me several pushing in the womb! She always did this whenever we said we wanted to buy her things or was looking at it. Lol! My naughty baby!

Hmm.. Milord will be sailing for around 2 weeks. & when he's back, he's going to the hospital with me for check-up again! & after that, when he received his July's pay in August, we're going shopping for baby's things already! So looking forward to it!

As for work, after the holiday project, was off for a week. & now, I'm off for another week again because schedule doesn't have my name in it D: Arrgh, I guessed I'm gonna be bored till death! Luckily, I've re-installed Audition! Hees, BabyJ is also free to accompany play! Lol!

So for the time being, I'm gonna spend my next 2 weeks without milord, doing nothing at all :x Shall blog more often for milord to read! Hehes! Byeeeee world! Shall sign off here...

2011-06-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

Finally! I just download the blog app on my Ip4 so I can blog wherever whenever I want :D This way, my blog will be more "alive"!

Hees! Yesterday is milord first time meeting baby, witnessing her growth in my womb! He's so happy when he saw her! Baby even box me while the doctor was doing the scan! Baby was so obedient that she showed us her face! She's so pretty & cute lo! Can't wait for her arrival to the world!!

Brought milord out the whole day yesterday & he's happy! He even wore jeans!! So presentable! Caught a movie last night with milord, Wei Hao & James too! Hehes!! Happy day spent with milord :)

Alright, I gotta go back to work! Bye peeps & have a nice weekend! :))

2011-06-09T20:15:00.002+08:00

It's been a super long time that I've last post on this dead blog of mine. Currently was busy working at nEbO, sometimes off once a week, sometimes twice a week... So hardly have time to post. Even if there's time, it was meant for my dearest milord or catch up on my sleep.

Baby is getting more active, kicking is getting more and more frequent too.. But it's alright because milord always have a way to make baby stop kicking :) Every night, a daily basis that milord will sayang baby first before going to bed. Yuppes, which also explains that milord is staying over at my place.

Milord and me is getting on very fine, much much better than our past. I love the way we are now. He's been fetching been from work whenever he's free from work early. Otherwise, he will meet me at my place. Milord dotes on me a lot too. He accompanies me to hospital visits, buys me my favourite Famous Amos cookies occasionally & even chocolates! :D He also make it a point to put some tibits in my bag before going to work, in case I gets too hungry.. Seee ^^ Sweet right?! Heehees! Shall sign off now. Shall blog soon when I'm free in the near future :)))

2011-04-18T21:20:00.002+08:00

Oh hello peepos! I'm back here but this time, a bit different huh?! I'm not willingly actually. Love has been pestering me to update my blog while he, himself leaving his own blog to rot & be left alone =.=" Like-a-what only right?!! Yucks!

Love told his mummy about my situation already. To our surprised, his mummy said she knew about it. He was stunned when she said that, & so do I when he told me about it. But things weren't as worst as what we thought it would be. She only persuaded him to ask me to opt for an abortion but didn't object us to be together. That's a good news uh? Yea, quite true. However, I've got another bad news too. BabyBeatrice will not be named under him as what his mummy said, so, she will be named under my name only. But that's alright for the both of us, since we had a long-term plan for our future ^^

Today, I went for my practical driving lesson test, & guessed what?! I've passed! I passed it! On the third time!! My Basic Theory Test, Final Theory Test, & plus today, Traffic Police test, I passed all three tests on the third try! Cool right?! Seems like the number "3" is quite a lucky number for me during tests ;) So happy man!!! Shiok! But... I doubt I dare to go on the road alone. Damned! I guessed I need to build up my confidence on short distance for now.

Love has already left for sailing for 4 days & will be back on Thursday, hopefully. Guessed that love will be happy once he saw the news I left on his Facebook, knowing I've passed my TP. Now that my TP is cleared, I can concentrate on my pregnancy :) Love's gonna be having a bad time knowing that I won't be able to fetch him for my confidence is insufficient. Shall make him wait for a short time then ^^

Well, that's all for today's posting. 2 news for him, I've passed my TP & blogged. Enough to make him happy already :) Signing off... Bye peepos! Have a good time & nice sleep tonight!

2011-04-11T11:08:00.001+08:00

Back with good news! Although previously was caught in a dilemma, but now, I'm clear headed. I'll be giving birth to baby, & baby has a name, Beatrice 林紫宣. Aha! Caught another clue?! Baby surname isn't mine, but it belongs to someone who has been by my side all along. Baby's English name was given by him, & baby will be born into a healthy family ♥

Throughout all these years, I've always have him, but due to stuborness, pushed him away all the time. But now, relentlessly put away all the attitudes & behaviour, just want him now. No matter how worse I'm in, he never leave. Aww, that's just him & perhaps, that's the reason why my heart couldn't let go.

Though baby ain't his, but he's willing to accept. Thanks for his unconditional love & giving. I know that it's unfair for him, but he doesn't want me to push him away once again, so, the gonna be guilt-stricken me, accepted him once again. For now & always, I will want this to last because, I do love him.

BabyBeatrice & Andrew Lim,

you're all my life.

With loves ♥

2011-03-31T11:27:00.002+08:00

Now, back here again because I've so much to tell; both bad & good news. So which one do you guys wanna hear first? Okay, whatever it is, the good news is... I've passed all my modules! I'm gonna graduate, graduate out of this course, out of this school! Couldn't believe I'd actually made it through! OMG! I'm so rapturous man! Anyway, for this to happen, it weren't solely my effort. Thanks to both Wei Xiang & Huat for always helping me with practical assignments, & also those teachers who gave me the chance to continue.. So, after graduating, I'm into the working society! Hope that I'll find a good job, with good pay, & a good boss! Hehes ^^

As for the bad news... Today I'm going back to the hospital like a routine. But this time, a lil different. I'm not carrying the hope that I'll see my lil precious one growing inside days by days, months by months anymore. I'm gonna to ask about a abortion because my health is way too weak. My beloved lil one, don't blame mummy for doing so. If you & me were healthy right from the start, mummy's mummy won't object me from bringing you to this world. But because you came unexpected, mummy's health wasn't in a right condition, I've to give you up. I'm sorry but you know, I do love you ♥ I hope, there's a chance that you will be back to my side again.

It seems like this lil one has a lil instinct that today it's gonna be a bad day for him/her. Woke up feeling giddy & once again, vomited... It seems like he/she doesn't want me to go to the hospital today. But baby, I'm sorry... You'll always be a part of my memories & me. You'll never be forgotten.

With much loves & misses...

2011-03-30T12:57:00.002+08:00

Everyone feels the heartache for me. Mummy, daddy, uncles, etc... I feel the heartaches for my beloved child. For now, I've only two ways to go, to abort or to keep it...? It's a hard decision to make. I know my health is going down, those who felt the heartaches for me doesn't want me to take the risk to sacrifice myself for this lil one. But having this lil one for 3 months plus, feelings developed. The way my beloved baby living inside me... The moments when I witnessed how my beloved baby moving & figeting inside me... Ohh, it's just so adorable & sweet. Yet, my health is not good at this point. Sigh... If I were to abort, will you blame me, my beloved baby? But it struck my mind that, if I were to give birth to you, will you promise to be healthy & keep me going on? No one knows... Not even myself :x

Going through so much, I thought, I'll be alone because seldom guys will accept someone going through all this. Especially in times when I'm so not interested in making new friends or so... But I'd this one, always with me, but yet, the stubborness in me is always pushing him away. Well, finally, the stubborness inside just went hiding in a corner & let my emotions took over control of the whole situation. Resulting, the happy & blissful me :) I know, no matter what decision I've made, he will always be with me. Thanks so much for being here all the time.

For now, I'll stop thinking about it & wait till my results is out, then I shall decide. Hopefully, by then, my health will improved & maybe, there's a twist of fate for both my beloved baby & me. Goodbye! :D

2011-03-12T14:32:00.001+08:00

Back to blogging since school has ended, nothing else for me to do at home.

Has been busy making trips to hospital almost every week for now and then. Baby is suspected to have down syndrome. Went through a lot just to verify baby's health. First, went to draw blood which hurts. Next, did a more detailed ultrasound scan on baby. Baby's neck thickness was above average, which results the suspect of down syndrome.

At first blood test result came out, baby dropped to the low risk catergory. But after another scan on baby, it plunged back to the high risk, & that causes me to do the needle procedure, CVS, in short, which I did it yesterday. It hurts a lot, seriously. Was feeling weak due to loss of blood after that. My face went pale like a ghost that scares Noelle. But thanks goodness, Noelle were there after Christina sis left to work.

Took a cab after resting there for 1 hour, fetched Wan Zi from Novena & went home. They went up my place, had spaghetti for lunch, & we watched cartoon. Slowly, as time passes, we were all drained. Noelle knocked out on my bed first, next was me. Wan Zi & I then went to Christina sis room to rest. Had a nice time with them last night.

Results for the CVS will be out in 2 - 3 weeks' time. Hopefully, by then, I won't received any calls from the hospital because it was meant to be a bad omen. If no calls were received, baby is safe! *Pray hard*

Last night, while sleeping, phone rang... Picked up & it was Julia. She called to tell me, that jerk is back to Singapore because his granny passed away. He even asked them things about me which they didn't reveal to him at all, claiming that they didn't know anything about me, except lying that I had an abortion, because that was what I told them. After the call, he rang me up, which obviously, I didn't answer. So, he sent messages to me which too, I didn't reply at all. Until 1am...

I was sleeping in pain, because I got agitated over the news & affected my wounds. But I'd to endure. Due to his irritatings phone calls & messages, I was finally able to sleep... Woke up very early today. Thinking nothing about it, for nothing will change my mind to give him a chance.

Well, there's nothing much to say about him. As for baby, I've decided that if baby really had down syndrome, I'll abort it because I don't have the ability to raise him/her up. Plus it's for life till I'm at my deathbed. I didn't want to bring him/her to this world to suffer too. But, if baby is healthy, I'll carry on having him/her :) Hopefully... Baby will be fine! Loves you, baby!

2011-02-24T09:31:00.001+08:00

Morning world! I'm back here! Had time to blog because the awesome me has once again, skipped school! Since debar list has came out yesterday, we already knew who was debarred, today, we are all so lazy to attend school. Since our attendance has been flying for the past few weeks.

Struggling for common test to pass last week, indeed, we have done well. Thumbs up people! As for my driving test, once again, failed. Circuit was doing well, but public roads flung badly. Never mind, it's okay! Shall try it until I passed!

Tummy-aches has became lesser, appetite is growing :) It's a good sign! Hormones are becoming more & more uncontrollable. Pimples have been growing. Tummy as soon, became bigger too... Looks like baby is doing quite well inside.

It's been a week or maybe more, since I've last contacted that him. Though the one of those days, he messaged me, but I couldn't care less. People like him should be ignored totally. One of these days, when baby is matured enough, I will let him/her know.

Hmmm, shall stop here & get going to go get all the food for tonight's steamboat with Maisy, Priscilla, Smarties, Noelle, Wan Zi & don't know who coming too.. Haha! Baby, give mommy luck & win all their money okay?! Then mommy buy you more things ♥

2011-02-16T11:29:00.001+08:00

Aloha readers! I'm back again. Finally, after a hectic week of revising for exams & practising of driving for the upcoming practical driving test on this coming Friday, I'm able to sit in front of my lappy at this point of time. By right, I should be in school for my repeated module class but I was kinda reluctant & lazy to go after being hardworking for so many days. So I've decided to give a break to myself for this morning. Break for not going to school, but still, staying home to complete my report which deadline is to be submitted by tomorrow. Since I've completed it, so I came here to blog.

2nd check up was still not here yet. It falls on the 3rd of March, so I'm still relying on myself. Recently, had became weaker. I don't know what's the cause of it, but I'm trying to stay as healthy as possible. "Folic acid" for baby is keeping me heaty that I need to have a large intake of liquids. Morning sickness has became more serious, as compared to the past. Amount of vomiting of gastric acid has doubled up too. I don't know whether will this be the cause of my poor appetite, but in any case, if this carries on, I'm going to the doctor soon.

Baby is going to be 3 months old in my tummy soon. His/her heartbeat is detectable. Thinking back, deciding to give birth, has since changed my whole definition of life & future. If future is without having a partner, I'm fine with it, as long as baby is around. He/she will be my happy pill, right baby? -Laughs-

As for that jerk, it upsets me more to acknowledge the fact that he suspected me of being unfaithful to him when I'm pregnant. He even expect me to understand him when I said nothing at all. Wow! That point of time, my eyes just stared blankly at the ceiling, not knowing what to say or how should I react. Well, I guessed this time, I really trust the wrong guy, had the wrong judgement. It's okay though. At least I've seen through him now. Thus, a clean break-up was done. I hope he will never pester me anymore.

It hurts me a lot... But for the sake of baby, I'm trying to stay as cheerful, as positive, to keep baby growing healthily inside. Even knowing the other fact that a friend whom I can trust, I can no longer rely on him too. I guessed this shall be the Karma of what I've done. Well, I surrendered to fate for this.

Love... A word that I find it hard to trust & rely on anymore. It's too heartwrenching, too complicated.

2011-02-07T16:36:00.002+08:00

Before I starts to type, Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! =) May this year be smooth & prosperous in everything you do.

Have yet to go for the second check up. Nothing was amiss up till today, so I assumed that baby is going on healthily inside. As for me, baby is such a hard-to-satisfy one, always making me puking out food that he/she dislike. See, so fussy, like me :x LOL! But one thing for sure, baby is obedient. Whenever I said something to him/her, he/she will listen & allow me to do this & that. Like before CNY's eve, I told him/her that he/she must give me eat all I can because seldom I can eat such good food. Indeed, baby allowed me to eat my fill! Hehes :D Well, I guessed our bondings are quite strong even though baby is only 2 months old.

I've got nothing to complain about life anymore. Life's repaying me well enough. Although I don't have a partner, but as long as baby, my family & friends around, I'm satisfied. *Laughs* Mummy promised to work hard to give you a good life no matter how bad the economy will be alright? *Winks* Love you baby!

As for him, he's still the same... Pestering me, telling me how much he loves me, how much he care & misses me... Oh, cut that out, it's bullshit. Sadly to say, I'm stubborn enough. I don't bear a grudge for bringing me to this state. Instead, I thank-you for all. You brought love(baby) to this world :) All I could say is, the only thing you're wrong is that, you neglected things that are important. You didn't care to ask, bother to probe. Worst was, you're not the right one. I won't say sorry, but thank you, I don't love you anymore. Goodbye.

2011-02-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

Well... It's really lazy of me to on my lappy, get online, update on my blog & stuffs... Been keeping myself super busy, hoping time will pass very fast. Indeed, it passed like a wind!

On the 23rd of Jan 2011, I went shopping. Talked to my beloved cousin, Candy, about the suspect of my pregnancy. Went to buy a pregnancy test kit at Watson. During night time, when I'm at home, I did the check. True enough, I was pregnant. Kind of expected it since my period was late for a month, & I wasn't expecting that on the month of January, it will come last minute.

Told my elder sister about it the next day. She came to believe it with the proof of a picture regarding my pregnancy test kit end result. We both talked to mummy during the night when she's free. She don't believe us at all, even claimed that we both were mad. But the next day, she came to terms with it after confronting my maid about my period.

On the 25th of Jan 2011, I went to Singhealth Polyclinic to get a double confirmation. Yes, it's accurate & true. I was really pregnant. I told the father of my child about this. The feelings he gave me was, he suspected me, couldn't believe it, though he tried to convey the message to me on how reluctant he wanted to take care of me. As usual, the stubborn me, I didn't gave him the chance too. I don't hate him, I blamed myself, but I've come to terms that I should thank him instead. He gave me the courage to break off with him... My life has a new path. It may be difficult, but thanks goodness that I've a strong family's & friends' support. I'm able to walk this path down myself, alone.

Today, I went to KK Hospital to do a ultrasound scan on my baby. Wow, this is the love of my life. It's 2 months' old! Was elated about it, though the process of drawing of blood is quite painful.. Well, this is the path I've chosen, I won't regret :)

Anyway, I told him(the father of the child) about the pregnancy, yet I didn't told him what I intend to do with it & I won't be telling him anyway. Call me selfish or whatever, it's alright! But you know, we girls can survived well without the need of guys! Tata, nights people!

2011-01-17T19:40:00.001+08:00

Hello 2011, goodbye 2010. It's been long since I posted here. But you know, I'm seriously giving myself no free time in my daily life. I hate days when I'm really free & nothing to do. So, I keep myself so busy that I forgotten to maintain a healthy lifestyle, which resulted, I'm sick currently. Maybe it's a good year for me, it also can be a bad year for me too. I'm not sure, not certain about it. Though I'm still missing out in school, but I tried to keep myself a regular there. As for weekends, I just keep taking on jobs. Once I'm received calls to work, I just went ahead with it. Thus, it's really a busy year for me. No time for friends at all.

As for love, I'm mad jumpy whenever he calls. I just keep ranting non-stop at him, giving him a bad attitude & just went on & on... I feel sucky about it but I'm pissed off don't know for what reason. Anyway, I don't miss him like I used to, don't love him as much as I do. No reason for things I'm doing, I just want to be alone, so separated from the world, especially from him.

CNY's coming, I'm not at the least looking forward for it. It's a waste of time. Do you think the amount of red packets received are able to cover the amount spent on preparing for CNY? NO! Not at all. I would rather leave for overseas than stay in SG to meet up with "1-year-see-1-time"'s relative.

I'm unsure about what is going on in me, my health, or even my thinking. But just... Like this.

2010-12-26T12:30:00.000+08:00

No time to post.

Nothing to blog about.

So goodbye :D

2010-12-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

Though DarlingP was at SG for 4 days, 1 day at M'sia, but those 4 days spent with him was totally awesome. Went shopping, went to a lot of places for nice food... Anywhere with him will do :) Got a pair of Guy Laroche's couple wallet, & he got me a SK's diamond ring! Omg, super love him to bits man! ♥

1 day has passed since DarlingP flew back to Taiwan. Didn't miss him like the starting already. Perhaps it's because it has already turned into a habit for me. Hees :D Whatever it is, I'll wait for DarlingP to come back & create more memories with him again!! Love you darling!

2010-12-18T18:56:00.001+08:00

Although it's a sad thing that DarlingP came back for that reason, but you know.. I'm happy to be able to see him, even just for that few days he's gonna stay in SG before returning back to Taiwan. Yesterday was almost a blast for us.. Though not much of surprise due to it was a last minute decision, but at least, the few of us gets to see him this soon!

DarlingP is at Sarawak now. He'll be back tomorrow again & yes, finally! We're going on a date (Y) Hees! After a few months of being a stay-home girl, DarlingP is gonna bring me to shop till I dropped :D Not missing out, JJ & Min, & this time, plus Phebe pa! Hees :)

Shall be in a happy tune for quite sometime :D DarlingP never leave my side since he's back. Because even sleeping moments, he's by my side, hugging me tightly. Oh my god, cannot breathe man! Hah, but I love this feeling.

You're so loved Darling ♥

2010-12-15T15:55:00.002+08:00

I failed my driving test.

I practised so hard for it,

I drove everyday,

till my leg numb,

I'm still not giving up.

But it all comes round that,

I failed... :'(

I'm very not happy with the result I get.

How I wished DarlingP was around for me...

But wait long uhs...

Stupid Katty, Noob Katty...

Like that also cannot pass.

Useless bum!

2010-12-11T21:04:00.000+08:00

Katty is slimming! Go go! Burnt those fats away! Hurray!

But because I've not enough nutrients in my body,

pimples outbreak!

Cui maximum! Boooo!

TP's getting nearer! Omg omg zomg!

Katty you can do it! Go!

Jiayous!

Missing you is inevitable,

but as those days passed by,

the longer you left me,

the happier I am.

It means that the day you're coming back is nearer!

2010-12-09T21:33:00.000+08:00

Driving driving driving.. It happens almost everyday now.

So tired to drive. Yet have to keep driving on.

Next week is the test, I'm afraid. I'm worried.

Sigh...

2010-12-08T11:41:00.000+08:00

Just recovered from all illnesses. & great, I'm feeling super lousy today. I woke up witnessing a bad scene in front of me! Fuck this. I skipped school because no one attends. Fuck that. I can't play Audition because the new patch has some problems. Fuck all! Worst is, life sucks, fuck life!

I'm annoyed. I'm frustrated. I'm irritated. Every negative words can just come running into me. Make me feel all the sadness & give it all to me. Fuck! I hate how I'm waiting in Singapore for that idiot to be back. I hate how my life goes & worse is, I hate how lonely I felt! Fuck! I just feel like breaking down. Maybe I should really go away silently, without anyone's notice. Anyway, it doesn't matter to anyone. Even if it does, there's nothing he/she can do. So, just fuck it luhs!

This _|_ ,

to you,

to me,

to everyone.

2010-12-02T17:24:00.001+08:00

I'm sicked.

I've no appetite for anything.

Everywhere of me aches.

First time...

I started to worry about me health D:

2010-11-30T16:19:00.001+08:00

Aiks! I've skipped school today. It's only the 2nd day of the week, & I've commit my same old sinful act. LOL! Wei Xiang is sicked, so he's afraid that I'm alone, he messaged me to notify me :D Thus, it led me to skip school! Haha!

Today's special. I didn't stay home & did nothing. I did something very nice okay! I rearranged the furnitures in my room till it looked spacious! (Y) Finally! Hmm, everything seems so perfect now. My spacious room, I've got everything I need.. I changed my phone, next year gonna get a new lappy... My DarlingP is back... What more am I short of? Oh ya! Money & graduation! Yes! Let's work hard towards all this!

2010-11-27T20:02:00.000+08:00

I was home the whole day. It's been long since I'd this kind of life. It's way too sucks man! I was super boring, no one entertaining me, no one bringing me out, no one was beside me making me laugh. So alone, so lonely...

A sudden feelings I'd felt, I want to let it all out. I want dearest to know. But, he is too busy for me. Yucks, I know I've got no choice but to endure this, because this is what he needs to do for his job. Sigh... Maybe I should get myself tied up with a permanent part-time job. I'm so worried about my studies, I have got no motivation to carry on learning. I just feel like giving it a break. If only dearest is here... He will be my listening ears. Sigh...

2010-11-26T20:28:00.000+08:00

I declined work chances for Sitex IT Fair which is happening now.

I've change my phone, my phone number.

I'm just fking me. Nobody changes this fact.

I thank god I'm not working for it.

Fucking lots of people.

I got shoved by the rude typical SG,

I was attitude by a fking cashier _!_

My gastric is giving me problems!

Arrgh!

Total spoil of mood!

2010-11-24T19:42:00.000+08:00

Naughty Katty skipped school today again.

Katty has no appetite again. But no matter how poor my appetite is, I tried to eat a little. Gastric not very good, so I've to take good care of my lil tummy.

Gotten my new number & it's privated. Shall officially let friends know about it, when I get my phone. For the time being, I'll just keep it to only close friends.

This time round, I'm not working for IT fair. Was kinda upset with it. Shan't mention it further more, least I get upset over it again.

So nice being able to talk to you almost everyday. I know it's very expensive, but I just want to hear yr voice because that's the least we both can do. Not being able to meet is already giving both of us a hard time, but I know, with our love so strong, we'll get over it, hand in hand. Hees, love you dear.

2010-11-23T18:18:00.000+08:00

今天心情很不好。不知为了什么... ... 可能是为了这个礼拜的工，感到不愉快。嗨，真是的！

So sucky, so moody... Even listening to music doesn't helps to cheer me up. Musics that were heard so dead...

2010-11-22T19:25:00.000+08:00

Hmm, so damned tired this few days. Have been working past 3 days. Hmm, though tired, yet everyone dote on me. So it's alright for me. Hees :) Plus the pay is quite high.

Went to school for morning lessons & went home after that. Was hoping for mummy to come back & can go get my iphone 4. But I guessed everyone was tired, so mummy said tomorrow then get it. Finally, able to change phone again :)

I dropped a tear in the ocean. The day you find it is the day I will stop missing you.

2010-11-19T08:27:00.000+08:00

Morning boobys! Slept at 12am last night & woke up at 7.15am automatically. So used to sleeping at 12am & waking up early. What a healthy lifestyle I'm leading now. Colours in my face are so pinkish that made me so natural too! Hees.

This few days, I doubt I can make it to blog. Because I'm working. Maybe if I'm not that tired, & everyday, wakes up at this time, I'll have the time to do so. Hees, shall see :)

Hi fker.

I miss you.

With loves,

Katty.

2010-11-18T16:30:00.000+08:00

Didn't have the time to post yesterday. Was out from morning till night.

Yesterday: Woke up as early as 8am to get prepared. Went out together with mommy, daddy, jie & didi to Toa Payoh to have breakfast. After that, went home, took a super short nap & went out. Met Min, JJ & Ahboy on the train & we alighted at Lavender. Met boss there & walked to King's Avenue Building for our job briefing. Aftermath, we walked again to Bugis to meet Ahsim at Candy's shop. Accompanied Candy down to have a puff & we all went off for dinner. Because I ate the slowest, everyone stared at me while eating :@ Even JJ the slow king, ate faster than me this time. Zzz! Boss went to meet his friends, while we went to Iluma's arcade to play. Spent our time there until 10pm, & we all left for home. As usual, I, alone took bus 12 while they all went back to Min's crib.

Today: Skipped classes since it's only a half-day for me, plus I'm lazy. Was tagging hearts halfway, & received Ryan's call. Last minute schedule, tomorrow to Sunday, working. Initially was meant to be tomorrow to Tuesday, but I've school, plus Min need the money, so asked her to replace. So, this week & next week weekends, will be working. Soon, will be rich! Yay!

Time's passing super fast for both dearest & me. I'm caught up with studies & works, while he's busy driving around in Taiwan. It's gonna be Decemeber soon! After the end of year 2010, it's another 3 months plus to fetching him from the airport. Oh my, so looking forward to it man! Hees :) It's alright not to message because I too, wouldn't want to spend so much on "useless messages". So, just communicate through the net when we have the time to online alright. Hees, loves & misses :P

2010-11-16T17:38:00.000+08:00

Oh my, last night also had a hard suffering time. Wanted to sleep yet kept feeling nauseuos. Went to toilet and... Vomitted everything. Yucks! Skipped PE today because by the time Charmaine & I reached our school's bus-stop, it's already 9.15am. Huat called when we almost reached, saying that class cancelled, then Wei Xiang said our project got nothing to do, so we skipped noon's class too. Accompanied Charmaine to eat & left for home.

Reached home, tagged heart... & slept after that. The weather so shiok, plus my room's both fans are on-ed. Lol! So cooling. & suddenly, mommy came home & asked me whether want to go shopping. Then I asked what time she's going, she said after she bathed. So I asked her to call me up after she bathed. Continued to sleep & suddenly, shoutings were heard. Omg, my heart almost jumped out. Out of the silence serenity conditions... God damned it. Ignored & continued lying on bed.

Woke up, took my Sweet Spot's chocs & went in mommy's room. Purposely walked & banged her, then mommy said I ate the chocs so fast. Lol! Then I replied that it's nice. Mommy said tomorrow she'll buy me more! Weee :)

You're so busy with yr driving, & by the time you're free, I'm almost into lala-land. Sorry tht I fell sick last night & couldn't chat with you. Hees :) Shall talk to you soon or maybe Friday's night alright. Loves.

2010-11-15T16:37:00.000+08:00

Struggled for some time, I finally fell asleep last night. Not very nice to drag myself out of bed, especially when it's so nice to sleep. As usual, met Charmaine on bus & late for class together. Afternoon's class was cancelled, so went to school for just 2 hours, & went home.

So happy to say that, it's rain after shine! Pestered BabyJ & tagged heart together! Hmm, admitted skills dropped, got owned by him for almost every normal round. Lol! But still, will try to online if I'd got the time. Shall remove the ring's curse & aimed for max ring! Jiayous hun!

Finally, I felt relieved. Because everything is back to normal. Although now I'm back to school plus working some days, but I believed I can manage my time wisely. Definitely there will be time for me to play, to study, to work & to sleep! No nightlife for you Katty!

IT fair is coming, hopefully mommy will get a new lappy for me! This lappy is going to sot, & join our WJSK's club alr. Must get a new one as soon as possible, before it stopped functioning, & I'll go mad. Hees :P

A very nice talked with dearest last night. 2 hours (Y) Oh yea! I loved that, but not all the time alright!? Shall make myself super busy, so time will pass more soon & in no time, I'll get to see you already! Woohooo!

With loves & much misses;

Katty signing off...

2010-11-14T19:46:00.001+08:00

Met Minmin yesterday at house downstairs. Was slacking halfway, then saw Wei Hao & Reuben coincidentally. So they sat down & chatted together with us. Suddenly, here comes the heavy rain. They can't proceed to their destinated place, so they settled down till the rain became smaller, while waiting for Dj to come & fetch them to chalet. After that, Minmin & me chatted awhile more, & we went back to my crib.

Was super boring, though was chatting online with dearest, but still, long chats couldn't last. So I played with my webcammy to entertain myself & tempt dearest. So that explains the picture above. Haha!

Today JJ came to meet Minmin & me. Talked awhile at void decks, went back my crib to have dinner. Hees :) JJ cooked nuggets for me because I'm scared to cook at home. LOL! After eating, went to my room to chat. After that, they went home alr. So bored now. Booooo!

Talked to dearest last night over the phone, when the time's ending, couldn't bear to put down the phone :'( Damned it, it's only half a month, there's still 11 & half a month to go. Just wish time could pass super super fast!

2010-11-13T17:45:00.000+08:00

I woke up as early as 8am automatically this morning! So, as usual, I lazed around on bed, then surf the net. -Sneak peep at the time- Omg! It's 8.30am, better get prepared. So went to bath. As expected, Uncle Toh arrived early, so before I could get my hair dry a lil, I went down already. Super blur. Was dazing while driving in the beginning. The car just couldn't go straight. Lucky Uncle Toh was opening his letters, never even concentrate. As long as it's smooth, he's fine with it. LOL! Uncle Toh is more anxious than me. Haha! Sometimes just feel like taping his mouth, to stop me from getting anxious like him too.

Reached home, DarlingNut, Minmin, Junjie were still sleeping. Candy's working, nothing to do at all, no one entertained me. So I went to watch television. LOL! Once I switched on the television, it's Winnie The Pooh's cartoon, so I just stay tuned to it. Like retarded can!? Haha! Around early noon, went back to roomy, to check. DarlingNut was onlined already! Just in time. So chatted with him throughout.

Was feeling moody, so I did a lot of drawings on MSN to cheer myself up. Haha! So funny luhs! I didn't know I could be so artistic using a mouse! LOL!

Chatting with DarlingNut is always great, but at times, I'll vomit blood. Due to his poor understanding of statements, his sentence construction... At times, just feel like giving him a slap or rather, don't reply at all. LOL! Yet, because of the super expensive overseas rate we're facing, shall tolerate & carry on chatting. Hees :) Sometimes, his naive is all-round cute, but at times, it could be irritating too. That depends on personal mood. LOL! Life as usual for the both of us, love is intact, nothing was wrong. As time passes by, I'll be able to see him soon. Loves you, boy ♥

2010-11-12T19:44:00.000+08:00

I almost forget to blog today. LOL! I'm lazing around throughout today. Keep looking at JJ's blogshop... Surfing the net, Facebook-ing. Rest on bed, that's all! LOL! Driving changed to tomorrrow, so got nothing to do for the entire day today.

2010-11-11T17:55:00.000+08:00

I didn't had a good night sleep because I miss my darling badly :'( I thought back about our past, how much things we went through, those times when I left him stranded alone.... & finally, fell asleep unknowingly.

Was late for class on purpose today. So reluctant to get up, especially when the weather is so nice. Had a plate of curry chicken rice before I went for school. LOL! Class starts at 9am, but I reached at 10am. Stayed there, dilly dally until 11am, ran away from class because of Brian! Went to block 940, met up with Kelvin & Rong Jie. They talked about last night's things, & slacked there all the way until 1pm, walked back school with Rong Jie' classmate.

Went back to school & trained for upcoming practical test. Woohoo! Clever me, absorb things indeed fast! I guessed practical test I can be able to pass! Hees :D So happy to know I can cope with studies now. So I'm gonna work harder to faster graduate! Don't want to waste time on retaining or repeating of modules, then can't work to save money T.T Jiayous, Katty!

Though didn't message much with honey today, but I'm feeling quite fine. Spent my time by concentrating on studies, indeed, time pass quite fast! (Y) As time goes by, with a blink of eye, honey will be back! Oh, can't wait to see his facial expression! Hahaha! I guessed will be damn hilarious man! Hees, honey misses!

2010-11-10T17:55:00.000+08:00

Naughty Katty skipped school today.

Due to yesterday Physical Eduction had NAFA test,

I'd muscle-ache. So I decided to take a break at home for the day (Y)

Messages & calls became expensive when bb changed his card to Taiwan sim-card. I've to cut down on daily messages, because if I carry on doing it the same way I does, I've to top up my card at least twice a week. It's too much for me to take it, even if I keep on working during shows, it's not enough to cover the money I spent on topping up. Then this way, throughout this year, not only did I saved up, I also waste the time. Tsk! So headache.

I know 1 year ain't short yet it ain't long too. 9 out of 10 couples failed to endure through this test. But I believed we will be the 1 out of 10 to pass through it. It's gonna be hard on us to survive through this test, but I know, as long as we're determined to make our future dreams come true, we'll made it through. From the past till now, we passed by each other's life several times. As time catches up on our age, we slow down & think about the future. This is the future we want, we will make it happened. I know we've let one another down several times, but I know, this time for sure, we will be able to withstand all sorts of test given by god above. Hees :) Bb, I miss you! It's the 10th day since you left. Everything it's still the same, but the difference is you are not around me. But because we shares the same dream, I'm not at all worry because we had one another. I love you baby. ♥

2010-11-09T18:19:00.000+08:00

I had Physical Education today. I took my height & weight! I dropped 2Kg & I grew 3cm! Wa, I super happy maximum luhs! Shall aimed for Silver for NAFA! Wooooohooo, jiayous!

During lunch break, Huat, Wei Xiang & me talked a lot about nature. So amazed by it man! If there's a chance, I would want to go into the submarine to see & learn everything about the deep sea creatures!

Katty ♥ Nutty;

& that's the fact!

2010-11-08T17:36:00.001+08:00

Hi to the world!

I would like to do a short post

because this girl here is super lazy now!

Hees :P

• I'm late for class.

• I did nothing at all.

• Went for lunch & got so super bloated!

• Late for afternoon's lesson.

• Theory halfway, I fell asleep.

• Woke up & copied works.

• Went Whitesands to transfer money.

• Renewed my bus-stamp.

• Went home together with Lincoln.

Surprisingly, god seperated all of us to different Secondary school, & a few years later, we met again. How we reminisced the past, we compared the past to now, how much changes we've made, & talks about everyone we knew. Well, I guessed that's just life :)

Well, as for Katty & Nutty...

The love never fades away,

even when we both are so distanced to each other,

but, our heart, is still staying side by side,

or maybe, transformed into one.

We've got the strongest love, trust & faith,

so neither of us is worried for each other.

Oh, I'm so glad that I finally let him in to my world.

Hahas, loves never gonna change & it's the same for me.

Whatever happens, let's face it together,

regardless the present or future. ♥

2010-11-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

Work is as usual like yesterday. Everyone super dote & take care of me (Y) Hees :P

Next work event is 3 weeks later. Super looking forward to it because I get to work with the same people,

& now, additional of Min, JJ, Ahboy, Boss & Daryl di.

I'm lovin' it!

I got a lot to say to you, to clarify with you,

but whenever I see replies, you made me speechless,

doesn't want to communicate further more,

because all yr replies is like 1 word by 1 word?

Sighh....

-Pat on shoulders- "Good job katty!"

The very first time I said sorry to DD because last night I showed my attitude to him.

I guessed I was too tired, & he made me wait for long.

Anyway, he also didn't take it to heart because he was enjoying :@

-Smack him- LOL!

Oh ya! DD got his Taiwan sim card,

which means I get to chat with him,

message with him a lot!

Loves!

2010-11-06T23:05:00.001+08:00

First day working for Kor is awesome! Being a virgin camera's promoter, I sold 8 cameras today! Hees, though only Kor I knew, the rest was stranger, but after they know me, helping me on promoting & stuffs, they're all funny & cool peoples! Though they likes to disturb me, but they dote on me a lot! Hahas!

Shall do a short sweet post today, because I'm kinda lazy to elaborate. Nights to the world!

Because I'm tired,
I still waited.
I waited for an hour plus,
not a message received.
Until when I messaged to rush,
then I know what's going on.
Oh, god damned it!
Katty, don't be so naive anymore.
You're not anyone's first place.

2010-11-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

Boooooo! Today kite flying failed! Rain, rain & rain non-stop! Usually when it rains, there also wind, but uncle Wind wasn't here today! So... We had a lot of trial and error. JJ ran a few marathon! LOL! Because today plannings were arranged a few days back, so we even had picnic. But because of the rain, we picnic under the block! Lmao! Virgin sia!

Somehow, there's a twinge of sadness deepdown in my heart D: BabyJ & me distanced. The way we communicate, it's no longer the same. Sigh.. I know he won't come to my blog, he won't see all this I've typed, but I just want to type on here.

Audition's sucha jackass man! I guessed.. I hurt many guys in that game. Fuck! Should I just quit? Is this being irresponsible? Am I running away from the problems I've faced? Arrgh! If so.. Why can't I be strong enough to face all this? I faced so much complicated problems in the past myself, but why can't I do this one more time? Just fuck it, just blame it on me! Sorry Baby J. Wuwu T.T

A mixture of feelings I'm experiencing right now! I'm sad because of BabyJ, but I'm also glad that I told him the truth. Sighhh..

DD's planning a lot of things....

Cool~

Haha, can't wait for him to be back!

2010-11-04T17:33:00.002+08:00

-Ahchoooo- God damned it! I just caught a cold. Was feeling lousy this morning while going to school. Lessons at 9am today, but I woke up at 9am. So obviously, I'm late. LOL! I was dead tired because I watched "I give my first love to you" last night on the net. Quite a nice love story, yea .__. Quite touching too. LOL, by the time it ends, it was... 1am! Omgfcukzcx! "I'd school tomorrow in the morning!" Wanted to sleep, yet just can't fall asleep. The moment I closed my eyes, I feared & nightmare starts to creep in. Wuwu T.T I miss him lying beside me, waiting for me to sleep then he sleep D:

After eating during lunch break, went to the POSB machine to top up 豆豆's card, & went the receipt is printed out.... Omgfcukzxc! I over-topped & my balance left is definitely less than $400 D: Damned it, I really had to save up. "Stop eating Katty! Save up all yr allowance!"

Fucking poor now! I think I needa find a part-time job to work on Friday, Saturday & Sunday. If not, I'll never save enough to put the money back to my bank. Hmmm, last minute received a message from kor that Saturday & Sunday he need people, so he asked me to help. Have already said to help him, so... Weekends, I'm unavailable again!

Class ended early today as teachers have a last minute meeting. Super tired. Part of the reason was due to my flu. Reached home, bathed, used com. Maid not cooking dinner tonight because everyone settled their own meal. So... The pathetic me, ate instant noodles for dinner. Zzz!

Oops! I remembered something. The blur me likes to listen to my itouch when travelling on bus, then stares out the window, thinking about random stuffs. While thinking, I was so engrossed in it that I almost miss my stop! This ain't the first time already .__. So blur so blur...

DD, I'm afraid of a lot of things...

There's so much I want to tell you...

There's so much I want to do for you...

But due to time & distant constraint,

everything must push it back!

I hate this feeling man!

2010-11-03T19:13:00.003+08:00

I just realised that my white polo tee for school is super loose & translucent. I guessed I'm gonna stop wearing it & wear my button-up uniform. Though clothes which are loose means I'm getting smaller in size, which result that I've to either throw them away or leave them aside, but I still want to carry on losing weight! I want my weight to be 45 kg D: I know by that time I'll be super small size & maybe, not as pretty as current, but I still want! I know 豆豆don't want me to continue losing weight, but he still allows it, but with condition that I'm healthy & not skipping meals. Hees :P

I watched the news today just because the culprits to Darren's case was reported over the news. All of them were sentenced to death & I thought Darren should be happy since they get their retribution. I know Darren's death was wrongful, & the culprits should deserved more than that, but since they were already sentenced to death, why should there be hatred in some still? I mean I can understand luhs, but violence is not the only solution to solve things? I believed Darren didn't want us to do anything that's against the law just to reveng for him. *Wa, seriously stupid you know! Knn, how old already, still violence here & there. Nehh -'- For you, this bunch of over-aged yet not thinking like a grown-up KIDS!*

I felt very annoyed when they always used violence to solve things. It's like, as a friend, I wouldn't want them to injure themselves or commit anything stupid which will lead them to regrets or whatsoever. Oh, I just hope they really suit their age.

I want to talk to 豆豆about it so much. I want to rant it on him. Let him understand how I feel, & then make him coax me. But then... Times are not like the past. I cannot just meet or call him as & when I like. 3rd day since 豆豆left for Taiwan. Today is so much better, 'cuz he messaged me during break time. I guessed I need to go to the AXS machine tomorrow to top up his card. If not, there will be difficulty for me to stay in contact with him. I know I'm slowly getting used to it, but yet, I'm still missing him.

豆豆,

yr Facebook's wall is spammed. LOL!
I miss yr scent,
I miss yr voice...
I miss the way you hug me to sleep,
I miss the way you look at me before sleeping.
Faster come back,
everyone's waiting.

2010-11-02T23:12:00.003+08:00

Ohaiyo! I'm a good girl today. I attended school! But it's the afternoon's lesson. LOL! Did project stuffs, and after school, met section head. Super happy. I don't need to wait till September 2011 then graduate. I can graduate together with Huat they all during March 2011, but it also means that I must stop skipping school & attend class regularly. Pull my socks up & pass all modules, complete all undone work & I'm done with everything!

Asked section head about Charmaine's case, and yes! They allowed her to come back this semester, but she still need to retain for half a year, to complete her modules during last semester. Though she needs to retain, but half a year is better than a year. Shall asked her back soon. Then we can study, & talk together again! :DDD Happy!

You see, the first picture. So cute! The tyres of our dustbin got antenna one! Haha, then the pictures below were taken in class. Huat & Mint went to smoke, they found this bug in the toilet. They caught it back to class. The colour so nice! So I decided to take a picture to share it here. Hees ^^

Work is confirmed too. Will be working together with kor, and the rest of my khakis. Though it will be tiring, but at least I gained some experience in the different prospect of a promoter job, also earned some savings for myself.

Though I received two good news, yet I also received a bad news. 豆豆 been cheated maximum! Hopefully he can come back during that one year of overseas course. If not, I shall worked super hard once I graduate to save enough money, to fly to Taiwan to look for him. This is super bad man! Ouhhs ouhhs! I get my prepaid card again. The number, just for him...

Second day since he left me. Time killed today is way better than yesterday because I had MM & JJ together with me. Hmmm, as time passed, I believed, I can get used to it. "Katty, jiayous! You can do it. Time passes fast, everything will back to normal after a year. 豆豆also must jiayous. For the future, for a happy-life. Cannot give up! Gambatte!"

豆豆, whenever you feel sad, & you start missing me,

remember that, there's someone,

even more than just one,

waiting for you to be back.

Anything that happened, take it with stride,

everything will be over soon.

Jiayous, all of us has faith in you.

* Rmb to read Min's blog also!

2010-11-01T15:20:00.001+08:00

The first(I hope it's the last too) time you left me to a place so far from me. It's only a 4 hour journey, but it's very hard to get you near me. Yet, we'll be always at the same spot, waiting for you. Hees :p

The clever girl here thought of an idea. Though all we can do is get connected through Facebook,E-mails & webcam, & you getting update about us through my blog, but I guessed that's not enough. I'll take as many pictures of our laughter & fun, & show it to you, let you feel it though you can't be here :)

For now, I'll keep going to school to kill time, to let it pass faster, so I'll get to see you sooner. Faster get my license, & bring you around to fun & exciting places we've been going throughout this year down the road. Keep yrself healthy & safe to be back to enjoy all of this with us. Take care, love one ♥

Missing you gets easier everyday

because even though you are one day further from the last time I saw you,

you are also one day closer to the next time I meet you.

2010-11-01T00:20:00.005+08:00

Over the years, whatever you've did for me, I remembered it.
• The way you gave in to me.
• The way you treated me like a princess.
• The way you made me laugh.
• The things you did for me.
• The greatest love you showered upon me.
• & more importantly, the memories you add into my life.

It's too much for me to elaborate, too much for me to put it in words. I know that I didn't need to say it out, because you'll understand it. God gave me the biggest gift on earth - Meeting you was fate. Falling in love was a total impulsion. You know JJ,MM, & a lot more people is waiting for you to come back. We all wish all the best for you. Take care of yrself, traffic there is not as safe as Singapore. Update us more on yr life there, & most important, our latest desire, to live together with JJ, MM & me at the age of 21. I know I didn't gave you any answer, but you should know it by heart since then. I don't have to make myself clear, but you know... :)

2010-10-30T20:00:00.000+08:00

Ain't no mountain high enough,

Ain't no valley low enough,

Ain't no river wide enough,

to keep me from getting to you.

2010-10-26T11:50:00.001+08:00

I know I'm loved.

I'm treated like a princess.

I'm the apple of his eyes.

But when it all comes around,

I distanced myself from love.

I yearn to love,

I wants to love,

but, I just can't do it.

Because,

I only hurt love.

If you return my trust & confidence,

I'll love you doubly as much as you love me.

But I won't consider the same old guys I used to have,

because I'll repeat the same old mistakes.

2010-10-21T19:08:00.000+08:00

Won't be able to accompany hun today,

because I'm going out to ton!

Hees :)

Thinking whether to bring Vodka down

to drink or not...

I think better not,

later no one drink with me D:

2010-10-20T23:09:00.005+08:00

Suddenly felt so gloomy.

It's like,

sometimes we are expecting more

from others because

we are willing to do that

much for them.

2010-10-20T11:48:00.001+08:00

Hahaha! My super shiny pretty head!

2010-10-19T22:52:00.000+08:00

-Talking on phone for some time-

Him: Later than I call you back at 12am.

Me: No? Later I'll just tell you, I don't want talk to you.

Him: Wa!

Me: Then I'll head straight to lala-land.

Him: Wa!

Me: So you mean I cannot sleep no matter how tired I am,

& wait for 12am to come, then talk to you? So evil~

Him: No luhs.

Me: Later when I'm tired, I'l tell myself "I cannot sleep, I cannot sleep,

I must wait till 12am, then call you & chat.

We both: -Laughs-

2010-10-18T13:11:00.000+08:00

2010-10-16T12:57:00.001+08:00

Surprised !

2010-10-16T08:44:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JASPER SHORTY, JORDAN KING-KING, JUSTINA, TERENCE HAN, HUIXIN, THOSE WHO FALLS ON THE SAME DAYS AS ME TOO!

Sweet 19th birthday's present!

Thanks to all who wished me,

who came to specially gave me a surprised,

who bought me presents,

who dotes on me, accompany me throughout the night!

I love you guys maximum!

I never thought it will be such a nice day for me,

because I wasn't expecting much.

But thanks to all, you guys made my day!

More pictures waiting to be upload.

Check back soon!

2010-10-15T15:46:00.002+08:00

Thanks baby for this
Asphodelus *egg-yolk* ring
you gave me on my
birthday eve.
Love you maximum!

2010-10-15T10:35:00.000+08:00

14 hours more.

A special day of

mine.

2010-10-14T10:41:00.001+08:00

Why do people likes to push another to the extreme when they have already gave in all they could? Can't they be less calculative? FUCK YOU, yes, to YOU! Stop pushing me to the ends when obviously, I'm at my wits' end!

2010-10-13T21:25:00.003+08:00

Beginnings are usually

scary and endings are

usually sad,

but it's everything in

between that makes it

all worth living.

2010-10-13T01:09:00.000+08:00

2010-10-11T22:21:00.004+08:00

Omg! Now then I realised that I didn't blogged for 3 days already! Sorry readers! So, now I'm here to blog, to give you an account of my recent lifestyle.

School starts today, & I skipped school. Initially meeting Huat to attend classes together, but I didn't attend. Hees :) Pardon me, friend! Was upset last night, thanks to BabyJ, who was accompanying me throughout, until I felt better, he persuaded me to sleep. Loves you dear! *shy*

Birthday is coming, but I wasn't looking forward to it. I don't know why. I'm thinking, who will remember this very special day of mine? Who will be here celebrating with me? Who's gonna buy me a birthday's gift? When was the last time I received lots of presents, unwrapping a lot of it at one go? I guessed it's 10 years back. Lol!

I'm gonna saved up! To get...

- A new camera

- A new lappy

- A new mobile phone

- Lots of outfit

I just wish I'm a billionaire :D Haha!

Anyway, good night peepos!
I'm gonna try to attend tomorrow's lessons!

Just for laughs!
I was attached to Chua Wan Zi on 2nd Jan 2004,

engaged to her on 10th Oct 2010,
& getting married to her on 16th Oct 2o1o.

What explains the picture above was...

She was asking me to sleep early on 9th Oct 2010...

Our conversations starts..

Me:" Ohk :D You also ohk! Don't eat too much.

If not tml can't wear the wedding gowns for photo shoot

& engagement party alr."

WZ:" HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! nvrm shy*

as long im married to you.. LOL "

Me:" Haha! Awww, tht's sweet! :$"

WZ:" ltr i sign paper halfway my button fly out

then shoot the witness head.. LOL!!"

& now you understand why,

there's a face on the picture above,

& a button on his forehead?

LOL!